• MMC (mind mental health collective) Surf Angels

    Tub bathing-Rat trap-Is my cool down groove time- Deep slumber foam dive-With solitary music- Candle lit soft flame-Aroma sense switch off

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  • Colon, comma, capital C.

    A poem on the theme of vulnerability. There's a couple of sweary words in here so be advised if you don't care for that kind of thing. Colon, comma, capital C.A linguistic interpretationof a visual representationof my vulnerability,wrapped up in thecomedy rule of three.Colon, comma, capital C. Crushed by cyclesof obsessive ideas;some crass and cliché,some toxic and possessive,some circuseswith creepy clowns,snake oil salesmen,and a ringmasterwho's cold, bloodshot eyesstare transfixed on me.Colon, comma, capital C. A face reddened by ...

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    #powerofvulnerability,
    #vulnerability,
    #confrontation
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  • Inner_Critic_Flowchart.pom

    During a session about dealing with your inner critic, I joked about the idea of having a self-care flowchart to help determine whether I'm having real doubts or if I'm just having negative thoughts because of poor self care. I thought about it a little more and decided it'd be something interesting to write about - I hope you enjoy! Do you feel bad?Yes.Have you eaten today?Yes.Have you eaten anythingthat isn't pop tarts and candytoday?No.Eat a ...

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    suicidal thoughts,
    self love,
    inner critic
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  • Listen.

    Please note: this story references suicide

    Listen. Just listen. A year ago today my life changed. A year ago today I received the worst phone call I could have ever imagined. Losing someone you love is never easy, but losing them to suicide is something unimaginable. The guilt that comes with this type of grief is overwhelming and something I don’t think I’ll ever be able to manage. A year ago yesterday I remember saying the words “something is really ...

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  • One Purple, One Blue, One Green

    Being marooned in mental illness and its prolongation takes endurance but I believe it will yield a genuine goal to satisfy my soul if I give it time.Regularly I still sense that my contemporaries have had a purpose, meaning and healthy action which I have been robbed of all my life.This I feel is a cynical lie which I tell myself deep in my programming, untrue in the wider perspective of things.Why do I need ...

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  • Pebbles on the sand

    Pebbles turn with the tideJust like you and me Some keep you steadySome set you free Some stand you tallBut some make you fall You can throw them in the waterYou can skim them in the sea But between you and mePebbles set you free ❤️  

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  • Mountains of Awareness

    I see myself on this top of a mountain looking out to this amazing view. I'm just looking out thinking of my life. The past,present and future. I'm wearing my normal clothes looking out and thinking. I'm with myself but I'm now thinking of something different. I know I'm doing ok and progressing forward with my life. However I look up and see the next mountain top in the horizon. It shows that I'm here and ...

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    -,
    Moving,
    Mountains,
    forward
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  • Feathers

    Feathers are lighter than rain Lighter than the airAbsorbed by our dreamsWho knows whereThey’d never break usThey brighten our dayFeathers offer peace They show us the way x 

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  • Altered Dimension

    Sitting a top a hill, accepting an alternate dimension /Views for miles, covering everything that was covered /The boundaries were only set by my own expectations / Wishful vision turned blessed reality through detailed investigation I swam and I swam through treacherous conditions /Resistance spawned from negativity fighting my every stride / The weakness infesting my soul, Had me believe the cheapest way out would forever let me hide / As of this moment, ...

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    progress,
    fresh,
    perspective
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  • The tears he didn't want me to cry

    Thank you North Ayrshire Recovery and Wellbeing College WRITE TO RECOVERY group for giving me a fresh perspective. Crying is a necessary part of the healing process for people who are going through trauma. I'm glad the group embrace their members' tears.I'm glad to have met you all today. Thank you for liking my poem.WALKING BACK TO HAPPINESS  read more

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  • World Suicide Prevention Day

    Mother and Son (World Suicide Prevention Day) Coming up to mental health, young people and suicide awareness month. I decided to write an article about my own experience as a mother overcoming mental health issues and my son who has been suffering on and off with mental health issues for most of his life. I am very aware of what it’s like to have a child go through the system to access basic support for young ...

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    #worldsuicidepreventionday,
    #reachouttosomeonetoday
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  • I Am Learning

    I am learning I am learning to navigate with no sense of direction and still find my way to joy.I am learning equilibrium to keep my mind healthy.I am learning more than textbook talk.I am learning more thanself destruction.I am learning in this uncertainty. I am owning my anxiety causeI am tired of avoiding lifeand trading love for safety.

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    learning,
    Recovery,
    progress,
    step by step,
    reminder
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  • My Sense of Condition and Community

    The man behind his own tender emotional sequence is wise to accept the reality of help from those around him even when it seems to him jaded with repetition but not lacking in love.I am a human being with a symphony of abstract emotional heart beats. These can be listened to or accommodated and nursed to a better place if I have the good fortune to receive a support when I need it.So what do ...

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    self,
    sense
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  • Weighted realignment

     A journey towards recovery, wherever was I to begin?Obstacles everywhere, showing zero sign of growing thin,Suffocation breeding from every which way,An indictment was made against my mentality This is hopeless This is agony The pressure caving me in, Relentlessy...pounding, knocking, chapping all the wrong doors,I could fill twenty buckets with all the anxiety ridden sweat falling from my pores Denial, shame, non existent self esteem, it's all there But eventually, finally, willinglyA moment, revelation, I find a path,This great wall, zu noch größerer ...

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    Weight of the mind,
    embrace,
    realignment
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  • Body of Defence

    Body of Defence Why is it that those the closest,Are the ones who hurt us the most,Fall short of the support I showed them,Make me feel invisible, empty like a ghost Why is it that my small family,Keep me tethered to my past,All those days of regret and pain,Haunting memories I wish did not last read more

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  • Paranoid Ocean

    I am a student of my paranoia,A child of paranoid ways,Reluctantly, I must acquiesceTo it's behaviourSo eagerly triggered by stress, I follow like a bobbing ship of the seaI dip up and down to an array,Of impractical outcomes, manifestIn dilemma, worry and delay, I can only lament this wall of waterAt Asylums' pearly gates around meI am sorry for being so madI forever pray my melancholia, My repentance knows no limitsMy afflicted spirits resonate,At follies subtle mechanismsWhich I ...

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    interaction,
    study,
    suspense
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  • Me

    i'm looking around and all i can seeare people all standing and staring at mei think they can see all the bad in my headThat they see all my thoughts causes feelings of dread.When i look at this deeper and dig down insideThese thoughts that surround me im not trying to hideYet thoughts from the past cause the future to mouldand its something quite different and fousty and old.As i learn to accept that im ...

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    #movingon,
    #justme,
    #happyasiam
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  • The Fountain Soothes My Troubled Soul

    The Fountain Soothes My Troubled SoulThe fountain soothes my troubled soul.To take a minute to appreciate nature,The natural sound of splashing waterDirected by mechanisms of the human mind,The fountain soothes my troubled soul As I step nearer to the sourceThe rhythms of the jetsseem to say;"Relax, , take time outRelax, take time out." It's 9.15am and I have 15 minutesTo the project opensTake a breatherMeditate on the craftsperson who sculptedThe walrus and the cherubsout of cast ...

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  • True beauty

    Like the blossomFrom the pink cherryYou bloom High in the sky Reach for the moon Your soul searching for itself  You'll find it thereHidden by the sun Waiting for you Take her hand And lead her to you  Real beauty often doesn't last. 

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  • The Great Fire

    This voice comes scurrying in like a fat plague rat when I least expect it. I'm armed with a barbed baseball bat and ready to strike. My mental health will not succumb to buboes; inflamed, painful thoughts pushing against my skull. Your infestation will not reach my positivity, locked deep within the crevasses of my brain. A great fire has arisen and scorches the areas of disease. Burn, burn it all away. Destroy the negativity running like sewage ...

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    depression,
    happiness,
    recovery,
    positive thinking,
    positivity
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  • Me

    Looking backI see myselfLooking in Looking in too farI’ve lost myself Need to tear myself apartTo remouldAnd rearrange Put me back togetherRe-piece who I seeWhat she means To me Make me completeSo I can competeOn the same level As you No mask neededIn a war With oneself No need to heedWhat we’re told we needIn this game Of to and fro Let it go.     

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  • A New Friend

    You seemed like someone I’d likeBut as you silently watched meYou looked straight through me You saw beneath my enthusiasmInstantlyTo the uncertainty below I thought I’d entertain youThought I’d win you overBut you knew more than that You smiled with meMade me feel part of your groupBut your eyes told meA different story  You weren’t there to scold meYou had solidityYou weren’t there to judgeYou just watchedAbsorbedMaybe a protector Eventually I was silencedNo leap neededA quiet road began I was rightI like ...

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  • She

    Am I she?Or is she me?Is me I?Or is I me? Are you you?Or am I too?You see through meBut I see you. 

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  • Ego

    I’m a big ball of egoWrapped up in a blanket Of zeroUnable to partake orEquate a straight lineToo difficult to permeateThrough to youI’m stuck Are you?

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  • Pat's Story

    Pat's Story: Since, in midwinter bleak, I wrote Ruth's story- only a partial reflection of my own story - I have had energy, time and opportunity to ponder on what it means to feel well when one has bipolar. Is it possible that you can function without a laminated mood scale helping you to decide whether you are over-the-top elated or in-the-depths suicidal? Surely, it is possible to feel happy again without feeling high again. ...

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  • The Shadow of the Future

    I am tethered to it, no matter how remote it seems, no matter how impossible. Connected, every part of me, by delicate threads. Each movement ripples away behind the veil of time. It's not opaque. I can see shadows and light dancing across the surface.I move and the shadows move, I get hints of how they connect. It's not always perfect, I can't control everything, but the way I move, it moves like me, I can control this. ...

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  • Beginning

    ● Beginning● Every breath is a new beginning, a puff of air, pushing energy into being.● Every action is a beginning, a surge of movement , causing activity to occur.● Every thought is a beginning, a release of intention, whispering life into theuniverse.● Every step is a beginning, movement on a path to a destination of your choosing.
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  • Positivity

    Positivity is an activitywith limited proclivity. The fragitity of it's anonymityregularly leads to negativity. The insensitivity of my irrationalitycompromises my creativity. It is my responsibility to embrace myvulnerability and share my authenticity. Mine is a world of possibility with my newsusceptibility to this feeling of positivity. 

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    #recovery,
    #positivity,
    #changingperspectives
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  • ME-ternity Leave

    ME-ternity LeaveBorn mid December, already a week late but heifers always are according to my Dad. Farming's always come first over family with him so my part in his story seems very much like a sideshow. So how did he shape my story? He pushed me away from farming and his old fashioned views on female roles as subsiduary characters. My Mum reinforced this by telling me to keep my independence and maybe this is ...

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    self-help,
    hope,
    self management,
    me,
    journey
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  • Shoulders are to Blame

    Shoulders are to BlameThe problems I have are all in my head I'm told and up until now that's what I have believed. My brain focusses on the negatives, the self criticism and unhelpful behaviours. But why cant I use it to see the silver linings like I do for others?Or maybe there's another partner in crime? My shoulders. The ones not only carrying the weight of the world, the devil and angel and the ...

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    hope,
    change,
    aspirations,
    new me
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  • Lipstick at Dawn

    Lipstick at Dawn 💄 Sexology power gamesGet us in a muddleAs we struggle To decideWho’s on top Corporate big catsIn their hallLook blindly down At the chicksIn the mallUnaware Of the powerThey holdAs they remould it Smooth as cheeseThe chicks see it allNo credit givenAs they silentlyChangeThe texture Behind the mascaraThey don’t stare or glareAt what needs erodedThe subtle approach manipulates In between the seams and circlesOf confusionHides the delusionOf who’s on top Their anchor is neededTo harbour changeA changeThat will bring plentyIn this time of ...

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    poem,
    power
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  • Personal roads

    Follow the yellow brick road...or the red one,or the blue. Find a dirt road with no bricks. Find a green road that’s not been stepped on yet. Don’t follow. Sit down and have a break. Take a nap in the sun. Go back to collect that pebble you liked. The PATH isn’t going anywhere, you are...and you will get there anyway - you just get to choose how. So make it a good one FOR YOU. 

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    self-knowledge,
    recovery journey,
    Self-compassion,
    choices
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  • Every Single Failure

    I collected secrets daily.I promised mysef that each was the last. A promise that lasted a day, then needed replaced.I filled up with these discarded promises, 'til I was brimming. Sickened,locked in a chamber with all my daily failures, and they summed me up.I could not see myself as anything otherthan the sum of all these parts. I kept them there, inside a feeble belief I could digest them all myself,that eventually this mass of broken promises, failures, ...

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    sense of self,
    self-knowledge,
    recovery,
    courage,
    truth
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  • Writers Block

    Writers BlockI wrote in invisible ink. The story only given life when the shadows appeared. I could hide, consumed by their greed.I tried in pencil. Words would flow and then stick. This stuckness gave a solid feeling to my invisibility. I erased the words and all at once the story went from something to nothing, like art imitating life, not good enough to show. Not wanting to relive the painful highlights. I wandered back to ...

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    #recovery,
    #perseverance,
    #movingon,
    #perspectives
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  • Iceland, we're on our way :o)

    I want to go to Iceland, at least I think I do?And if I had a bucket list it would be number twoThe flight is long but I don't care coz flying makes me feel goodThe peanuts, drinks and high air jinks and tiny little loo. It truly is exciting to be travelling at this height read more

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  • A Letter To Update Myself

         A varying ability for taking on responsibility on a daily basis is not the same as being irresponsible. You can be good with varying power while being less able at times. My conclusion is this: the experience of inexperience and a lack of confidence because of it is what develops my skills.   To quick tempered, impatient individuals it might be regarded as, inefficient time wasting and a source of trouble. “He does not ...

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    Reflection,
    Hope,
    Sense of Self
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  • Mist of Solution

    Well I'm out in the shire, there's no one, not even a Hobbit around, just some reflected image of a bedsit poet and I see that he's tied and bound.  The dark air is heavy, almost condensed, time and the ghosts of time are the only things that stirs, going nowhere in particular the bedsit trudges, racking his soul for some sort of answer, his one comfort being ...

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  • Looking after my Health

      Looking after my health is a real job in itself which I juggle with my exterior work. I know that many people have to cope with a health job, as well as provide from their material ones.  However when unwell I need a genuine shelter from the economic realities of life. A space to recover. Human contact.  Because the economic part of me has dried up and is replaced by the fear that it has ...

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    self-knowledge,
    wellness,
    work
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  • What's Inside

     “It’s not a tale, but a story that is constantly being written.”It’s not enough to simply see you from the outside. It’s easily enough to appreciate your strength, but that falls short from what they can’t see. You can’t fully appreciate the story when you only know the ending. What people don’t see will open their eyes forever. Those who share a similar understanding will find their way. How struggle and triumph lay just beyond ...

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    positivity,
    self love,
    encouragement,
    strength,
    future
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  • NEW YEAR'S DAY: A Fresh Horizon

    NEW YEAR'S DAY…we were set for an early rise on New Year’s Day - an early morning skinny-dip in the Atlantic Ocean! Before dawn, two young couples - Mel and Chloe, and Hamish and Serena were hauling themselves out of their creaking bunk-beds and staggering towards the boot-room to kit out for a bracing destination: the whistling sands of Clachtoll. Having tumbled out of the Hostel door, the four-some were greeted with a drifting mist that spilled ...

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  • Going no where (freestyle)

    Although it seems hopeless Do not despairA friend in me you can shareWe will cook a meal share a laughSit back relax have a halfGet under the sheets if you want to i dont careAs long as were happy and theres no hatred thereI come from a place where my heart it froze Looking for smiles but all i got was .closed.I dont know where im going with this poem but its making us laugh so fuck ...

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  • Fresh Perspectives My &#$€ !

    Please note: this piece references suicide