I wish for the future that I will not feel stuck in this mindset that I have for 6 whole years now. To not panic or feel nauseous whenever I develop feelings for someone. To actually be able to enjoy life with someone else and to eat around them without a single worry. I wish at some point I will find love and be able to enjoy it to its fullest, whether it lasts or ...read more
I need to sleep. It's not just me, as human beings we all need to sleep. But I'm too tired and selfish to think about the bigger picture right now. When I turn off the lights and close my eyes and wait for the dreams to come, those fluffy sheep to lull me away, it doesn't work.I don't have a sleep disorder. I've dreamt about it, ironically enough, and I've googled it a trillion different times. ...read more
I can do this!
I go back to uni today! I’m determined not to let my aniexty get the best of me. I will be alright. Last night, I was overthinking and sinking into old habits of negative thoughts and excuses. But today, I will be fine. I have to tell myself this, what other option do I have? I will get up, finish packing, pray I can get the last bits in the car, say goodbye to siblings ...read more
Why can't I make plans and then actually go through with them ? I make plans then I spend hours worrying that someone I'm going with won't like it even if I have asked and they said they wanted to come with me. Or I make plans like to go up to uni for the night and then I start worrying what if something goes wrong what if I have forgotten something.why am I constantly worrying about ...read more