• WORK

    WORK Not sure what I am meant to be doing, will it be too difficult? Working in the unknown, what will the future hold.  Where should I be?  Not meeting other people's expectations but deciding I am happy with where I am as life is not a race.  Ambition.  Trying to progress, afraid to make a decision about future jobs because what if it is the wrong decision.  Allowing myself to fulfill my ...

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    work,
    worker
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  • Looking after my Health

      Looking after my health is a real job in itself which I juggle with my exterior work. I know that many people have to cope with a health job, as well as provide from their material ones.  However when unwell I need a genuine shelter from the economic realities of life. A space to recover. Human contact.  Because the economic part of me has dried up and is replaced by the fear that it has ...

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    self-knowledge,
    wellness,
    work
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  • Strange

    Please note this story references suicide and self harm

    Going to work every day when you've been thinking of suicide and cutting yourself the night before is strange. People asking how you are. Wanting to tell them, wanting to give them a reason why you've been so scatty and struggled to remember things. It gives me a sense of shame not feeling like I'm fully excelling at work because it is my near only form of social interaction and that is how ...

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    depression,
    college,
    suicidal thoughts,
    work,
    self harm
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  • You Are Doing A Good Job

    It is my belief that suffering mental illness has a great spiritual benefit and significance for all of us if only we can bear to live with it. We can understand deeply other people's misfortunes because we are so depleted ourselves. So we work hard, we are not lazy. It is a symptom that optimism and positivity are elusive in this adversity. We need to ask for great courage to steer through it and we ...

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    hope,
    spiritual emergence,
    work
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  • In which we discover that life is better than a life purpose.

    So I've been thinking about my place in the world. Wondering what I should be doing with myself, now ten years has passed since I last did paid work and I am feeling a bit more able and restless. I was thinking how hard it is to set foot back into the workplace, knowing that its not stepping back to You ten years ago when you abandoned your job, but stepping into the new version ...

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    Tags:
    volunteering,
    purpose,
    job,
    achievement,
    career
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  • Bob Maintains His Confidence

    Bob Maintains His Confidence. How well do I react to confidence when I see it all around me in others while I do not seem to have much of it in myself,queries Bob to himself....... and.....how well do I perform at work when I only have a fraction of the confidence I need to do the job. Its a mean equation to balance but I have to do it well to live and to stay ...

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    Tags:
    control,
    resilience,
    work,
    hope,
    protecting
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  • My Mental Wealth

    My Mental Wealth Story While working in a stressful job as senior manager in NHS, I became depressed and suicidal, lonely and despairing. Something had to change...and it did. I had a break-down or, as I later called it,- a break-through. I went through a process, lifestyle changes, prescriptions and various therapeutic activities that helped me to get my mental wealth back. My mental wealth includes: friendships and time with friends; meditation, both mindfulness and ...

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    metta,
    depression,
    mindfulness,
    despair,
    stress
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  • What Worries Bob The Most.........

    What Worries Bob The Most...... ....is the struggle between his holistic happiness and his absence from the world of full time work. Will he find peace in the end ? His happiness has been anchored in an ever deepening prayer life. Something he trusts . Deeper than the affliction itself. Causing a reservoir of happiness. Turning back the tide of illness like a merciful moon. A lunar intervention requiring a regular appointment with his creator. ...

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    Tags:
    sense of self,
    self-knowledge,
    wellness,
    stress,
    work
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  • Bob's Work Shocks

    Bob's Work Shocks My intelligence tells me I can do more while my illness says I can not. I recover to a point then it goes again making it hard to lead a balanced life. I feel like I am always struggling to start and never quite making it. Picking up the bogey prize when I do for running the race in the first place, hoping I will finish it. " Is this all I ...

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    Tags:
    reflection,
    recovery,
    vulnerability,
    work,
    lived experience
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  • The summary of my depression journey

    I suppose I have known for a long time that my job wasn't working for me. I was caught up in the camaraderie and the fact of living in a foreign country helps to cement that. I have never really kept a job very long and this one seemed to be different. I was ambitious and climbed the ladder, with it increasing all the time the hours I worked. Working from home with long days ...

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    depression,
    psychiatrist,
    therapist,
    work,
    anti-depressants
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