• Peace at Last

    Success! 2hours after she fooled me into thinking she was asleep my daughter is finally asleep. It seems like such a small victory but I never got mad or yelled I found a way that helped us both. I tried all usual go to remedies (breast, snuggles, rocking) but alas they were failing me. what did work? laying in our beds ignoring each other..... she has become a teenager already apparently. i can now enjoy ...

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    Tags:
    success,
    peace,
    Mum,
    VICTORY,
    Sleep
  • Tiredness you got me!

    I wake in the morning and feel refreshed. I might not have plans but I hope something will inspire me and I will be off out to conquer the day, But you take over me, My body starts to feel heavy and my eyes struggle to stay opened. I yawn uncontrollably. Tiredness you are taking me down AGAIN. But I havnt been out yet, How can you possibly need to rest AGAIN? Are you telling ...

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    Tags:
    Routine,
    Awake,
    Living,
    Tiredness,
    Plans
  • My Safe Place

    Today I am "surviving" I didn't sleep well last night which really isn't like me at all. I took my girlfriend to the dentist at 8am and when we came back we slept for another few hours before she had to get up for work. I was actually really looking forward to getting home. I just wanted a bit of time to myself, alone, in my own safe place. After all when you feel a ...

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    Tags:
    Clean,
    Borderline Personality Disorder,
    Housework,
    Home,
    Selfish
  • Awake

    Why am I still awake? Im normally sound asleep at this time. Im missing my girlfriend but she said I should go stay tonight but I've just not really moved from here all evening. I also had thoughts of self harming but as I said I havnt really moved. I cant be bothered doing anything. maybe its the small amount of cocodamol I'v taken that's keeping me awake but also making me tired and feel ...

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    Tags:
    Awake,
    Cocodamol,
    Tablets,
    Sleep,
    Tired