• Love

    Love is notonly one thing; butterflies chasing diamond rings. Love is not exclusive to one person, but findsmany others to which it can bind. Love is notreserved solely for romantic partners but is often seen as such. Love is small gestures; The feel of a kitten's fur, a friends laughter,forget about 'happy ever after'. Love is happy often now, talking with friends, family, partners.  But most of allLove is for everyone. 

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    Tags:
    sense of self,
    understanding,
    love,
    self love,
    care
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  • Slippers and Lampshades

    Slippers and Lampshades He bought me slippers and lampshadesHe knows my weakness and strength What can I do?What should I do?He knows me inside out I’ll turn it outside inI’ll give it all back to himI’ll reverse the trendI’ll resend to sender ........ Taken - I’ve resolved itHolding it - I’m attached ConcludedLetting goReversing I’ll give myself to him He holds itIt’s coolIt’s pulled meIt’s stopped me wanting more ....... Where have I gone?Who am I now? I’m somewhere in between usSomewhere beneath the sheetsSomewhere beside The fleeting ...

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    sense of self,
    love,
    poem
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  • Every Single Failure

    I collected secrets daily.I promised mysef that each was the last. A promise that lasted a day, then needed replaced.I filled up with these discarded promises, 'til I was brimming. Sickened,locked in a chamber with all my daily failures, and they summed me up.I could not see myself as anything otherthan the sum of all these parts. I kept them there, inside a feeble belief I could digest them all myself,that eventually this mass of broken promises, failures, ...

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    Tags:
    courage,
    recovery,
    sense of self,
    self-knowledge,
    truth
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  • An Old Skin

    A reflex to look backwards,just to be sure it's not still trailing,it's not catching up on me.Me: it's betrayer.An old skin,worn and peeling.I run my hands over myselfI reassure myself at least three times a daythat it hasn't made it's wayback there, behind my eyes,an old, dead self.Young and dying. Brittle skin,hard enough to crack, I watch out for the slow hardening,the scales appearing.Soften to myself,flesh too soft to break,but stretch and train its shape. 

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    sense of self,
    recovery,
    future
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  • The Ways Of Others And My Micro Failings

    Without sounding pathetic the ways of others tend to have been stronger. Events take over and I am in someone else's hands. Where did my power go? Then risks are taken on my behalf and their consequences are again held in someone else's hands. I am left with something I do not want to do, silenced and with no voice. Such are the perplexities that worry and frighten my soul. When I am surrounded by ...

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    Tags:
    identity,
    power,
    sense of self,
    loss,
    self-worth
  • Bob Makes Peace With His Struggles

    Bob Considers His Struggles To anyone looking in all that is observed is someone struggling, believes Bob . Struggling with confidence, struggling to tie his own shoe laces. A nervy person unable to inspire confidence in others. He is eventually ignored after a few jokes are shared between those who seem to find life much easier.He has to forgive them. His youth is diminishing ,theirs is in full flood.He knows they should know better. He ...

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    sense of self,
    self-knowledge,
    spiritual emergence,
    self-help,
    hope
  • What Worries Bob The Most.........

    What Worries Bob The Most...... ....is the struggle between his holistic happiness and his absence from the world of full time work. Will he find peace in the end ? His happiness has been anchored in an ever deepening prayer life. Something he trusts . Deeper than the affliction itself. Causing a reservoir of happiness. Turning back the tide of illness like a merciful moon. A lunar intervention requiring a regular appointment with his creator. ...

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    Tags:
    sense of self,
    self-knowledge,
    wellness,
    stress,
    work
  • Bob's Photons Of Light

    Bob's Photons Of Light "The effort I am putting in is being seen" Bob reckons to himself. "It registers like photons of light detected on the most sensitive photographic plate" he construes. The image might be difficult to interpret as with particle physics for instance. But it is noticed and recorded , he thinks. I am writing messages to the cosmos for someone to see , he explains to himself. He fears a black hole ...

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    Tags:
    spirituality,
    sense of self,
    inspiration,
    spiritual emergence,
    self management