In The Moment
Please note: this story talks about self harm
When I am trying to ride out self harm urges I feel like my insides are twisting in on themselves. I shake and feel like I can't stand another second of being in my skin, it feels like torture, the kind that makes you so frustrated you want to cry. My mind repeats graphic bloody imagery over and over convincing me ...read more
I'd like to breathe
I've been talking with various people. Friends. Aquaintances. They know my situation. My daughter has just started school and I'm beginning to come out of my shell in the sense of becoming more comfortable with her at school.The dis-attaching process. People have been saying a variety of things "This is what you've wanted. It's time for you now", I've said in the past, "I can't wait to get my life back" (and I can't help feeling ...read more
Recovery is the hardest part of mental illness.
Warning, this story deals with self harm and suicidal thoughts. I have recently been diagnosed with Depressive Episodes, OCD, Self Harm, Social Anxiety and Eating problems. With features of Bordeline Personality Disorder. Throughout my childhood I struggled with social situations, things like germs, perfectionism and trichotillomania (pulling my eyebrows and eyelashes out) .. although my mum thought it was a bit odd- she never really believed when people pointed it out to her. I went ...read more