• What is Recovery

    What Does Recovery Mean to You? This is an age old question, I've answered it a few times and I think I've answered it differently every single time I've done it. It all comes down to one thing, to the main issue. My biggest issue is my eating disorder, which leads to my self-hatred, my rubbish self-confidence, my weight and a lot of frustration unlike any that I've felt since I was about ten years old. The ...

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    Tags:
    Eating disorder,
    Autism,
    self-worth,
    positive thinking,
    self-help
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  • What's Inside

    What’s Inside “It’s not a tale, but a story that is constantly being written.” It’s not enough to simply see you from the outside. It’s easily enough to appreciate your strength, but that falls short from what they can’t see. You can’t fully appreciate the story when you only know the ending. What people don’t see will open their eyes forever. Those who share a similar understanding will find their way. How struggle and triumph lay just ...

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    Tags:
    self-worth,
    love,
    COURAGE,
    #positivity
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  • For You

    My fragile part brokeAs my heart caved I’d poured my heart into youBut you drank itSaving it for others LeftMute,numbMy soul deserted me Alone with no value ..........  My jigsaw landscape Could be pieced together It would be my beach retreat A place for me to blossom I resolved to find myselfAnd give her the loveI have in abundance She made me laugh againShe made me cry A stronger outer shellBut my fragile part still craved He walked in when I was ready ........

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    Tags:
    self-worth,
    self help,
    heartache
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  • 99% Real : 1% Mania

    OH! That 1%. If only I could be real for 100% of the time. Would the grass have been greener for me, my family and friends? I fear it would not, life being life. It is just a rash of wishful thinking. That gremlin 1% precipitates, spontaneously, while working, knocking out reality in an instant. Like the wind blowing out a candle. Then I find myself trying to make everything right when it is out ...

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    Tags:
    mania,
    reflection,
    anxiety,
    love,
    self-worth
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  • The Ways Of Others And My Micro Failings

    Without sounding pathetic the ways of others tend to have been stronger. Events take over and I am in someone else's hands. Where did my power go? Then risks are taken on my behalf and their consequences are again held in someone else's hands. I am left with something I do not want to do, silenced and with no voice. Such are the perplexities that worry and frighten my soul. When I am surrounded by ...

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    Tags:
    identity,
    power,
    sense of self,
    loss,
    self-worth
  • Fighting self sabotage!

    I hit success today, I managed to do what I set out to do. Even though my inner (shall we call it demon? Well it is that annoying - not a real voice by the way, just my subconscious)voice was screaming at me to give up because it's just too much hard work. I would call myself lazy, but it wouldn't be true it's more like a lack of self belief, inspiration and motivation really ...

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    Tags:
    success,
    fighting yourself,
    triumph,
    hard work,
    self-worth
  • Challenging my disordered thoughts

    I never realized how deeply involved I was in my eating disorder until I started recovery. It was a very harsh realization to accept I was no longer in control of it and that what I was doing was actually causing me serious physical harm. Accepting the problem was real was the first practical step towards recovery. I began to challenge my thoughts and try identify if they were as a result of disordered thinking ...

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    Tags:
    acceptance,
    taking control,
    reflection,
    eating disorder,
    anorexia
  • Health in Mind

    I'm currently volunteering for the charity Health in Mind (ironic huh) but I actually love it!! I have the freedom to arrange these really cool events, the office staff are amazing and I love being there. I feel relaxed and at home. I'm so glad that I have found something that makes me want to get up in the morning and that I actually have some self worth.............. now if only I could find a ...

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    Tags:
    happy,
    charity,
    self-worth,
    volunteering