When you see me........
My face:My face is not pretty, but it's the only one I've got.Since childhood I have been told to 'cheer up', 'whats up with you', 'get out of bed on the wrong side then', 'oh, you look happy at school/work', 'it might never happen'.I have what is termed as a hangdog expression, bit like droopy dog (look him up) or Eeyore, so even if I feel ok, fine, good I still get the comments.Yes it ...read more
I am tired. So damn tired all the time. Life seems hard, my eyes and brain ache for the need to be good enough, to be clever and wise, to experience the happiness others must thrive on. When I was 14years old I was in a terrible place. I was taking drugs, a lot of drugs. I was in a bad crowd but I had a lot of 'friends'. they weren't real friends though because ...read more
I think I am crazy, like not bat shit crazy but maybe mentally unstable. Wow, even typing that seems alien to me. I am paranoid and jealous beyond belief. My poor boyfriend has to put up with way to much being with me. Maybe it is his fault for getting involved with someone like me. Maybe it is my fault for not telling him how worthless I feel all the time. Sometimes I question our ...read more