• Back In The Room

    Ground Yourself. Back in the Room.4-7-8.Breathe and continue.  “What was that like for you?”Time stops.I can no longer disconnectfrom my difficulties.I can no longer disconnect myself from the words that tumble out of my mouth.A Voice. Aloud withPeace and PainIntertwined identity. I sweat out confessions that unravel from my mind.My throat is a clogged up drainof memories I would rather forget.I speak. I remember. I regret it.Legacy of Altas in my bloodI carry round guilt as my rucksack.Until NowRepenting sinswith pen and paper in handwas ...

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    Tags:
    #recovery,
    #challenge,
    #talking,
    #speakyourtruth,
    #facingfear
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  • Gambler's Anonymous

    I spin the wheel, there it goes, my turbulent mood dependant on the speed and force. It lands on the red. I debt again. The anger subsides as the negativity consumes. I gambled my sanity and lost again. Left to chance, I repeat the cycle over again. Deeper in debt I go. I talk the talk and walk the walk of others, standing in their shadows, hoping the bailiffs stay away. Unnoticed I go on. ...

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    #recovery,
    #resilience,
    #wellbeing
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  • Positivity

    Positivity is an activitywith limited proclivity. The fragitity of it's anonymityregularly leads to negativity. The insensitivity of my irrationalitycompromises my creativity. It is my responsibility to embrace myvulnerability and share my authenticity. Mine is a world of possibility with my newsusceptibility to this feeling of positivity. 

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    #recovery,
    #positivity,
    #changingperspectives
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  • Strength

    Strength, it sounds solid enough. It can hold its own in a battle of words, with its g curling round like the bulging bicep of an experienced weightlifter. Strength. The word falters on my tongue. My lips move to push it out but my body retracts the sound, refusing its escape. It’s too heavy, I can’t hold it up. Instead it lingers in my vocabulary unused, in a graveyard of words left unspoken. Those words ...

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    Tags:
    #recovery,
    #wellbeing,
    #strength,
    #keepgoing
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  • Ode to the Active Listener

    Ode to the  Active ListenerLend me your ear, let me exercise it for you. It looks in good shape,  can it clarify my obscure?Activate muscles so they grab  hold of my words.Their weightiness drags me, yet you hold them up.Vibrating  through mouth from internal to external.No longer just sounds, they float on eternal.Your ear gives them life,  it’s drum beats to their time.Connects them to heart , so that you catch my rhyme.Empathy lent, communication grows.Relief ...

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    #recovery,
    #surviving,
    #listen
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  • A story Unfolding

    A Story UnfoldingBefore me lies a closed book, pages tattered around the edges.Words submitted in black and white cement it’s story through the ages.The cover wanes and creaks weighing heavy on what lies beneath.The sole protector fronting perfection, defending pages from fingers that crumple and crease.The story itself is incomplete.Retracted sentiments through success and defeat.The beginnings morph past middles and absorb the endings.Devouring plots with intentions pending.Others penned the start you see.Unseeing eyes forging misery.The ...

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    Tags:
    #recovery,
    #journey,
    #survival,
    #mystory
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  • Writers Block

    Writers BlockI wrote in invisible ink. The story only given life when the shadows appeared. I could hide, consumed by their greed.I tried in pencil. Words would flow and then stick. This stuckness gave a solid feeling to my invisibility. I erased the words and all at once the story went from something to nothing, like art imitating life, not good enough to show. Not wanting to relive the painful highlights. I wandered back to ...

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    Tags:
    #recovery,
    #perseverance,
    #movingon,
    #perspectives
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  • A storm always passes

    It's dark out there. The clouds approach overhead, looming like soldiers waiting to strike. I am stuck, unable to move, sinking in the claws of the sludge. My mind has gone from panick to resignation. I've tried to get out but I just don't have the strength. The weather's closing in. There's a quietness in the air, the calm before the storm. There it is, the drip, drip, drip from the clouds above. It's as if ...

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    Tags:
    #recovery,
    #journey,
    #change,
    #unstuck
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  • Transformation Games

    I feel I am changing, just not quickly enough.  I know that I have made huge strides towards a more balanced lifestyle but I am still very much a weirdo.  More than being a weirdo, I am still suffering from a chronic lack of self esteem.  However bit by bit it is developing.  Every time I avoid temptation or make a positive choice, it strengthens my resilience.  Each small difference helps ...

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  • Today's Ashes are Tomorrow's Soil

    It's burnt, burnt to a crisp.There is nothing left but the fragile ashes, nothing distinguishable.The last remnants carried by the smoke, floating in the ether somewhere.The ashes are left behind, the faint memory of what was.They are dumped, discarded in a heap.What a waste!There is so much potential.Don't bury the memories, don't leave them to rot.Learn from them or cherish them.Use them to breathe life ...

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    Tags:
    #recovery,
    #newperspective,
    #resilience,
    #journey
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  • Dear Stranger

    Dear Stranger, I am writing this to you to tell you that I care. You may have a reason as to why you have decided to read this post or maybe you don't and that's perfectly okay. Please know that you are not alone and that in time things will get better. Things will get easier but you've just got to get through the hard stuff first. It's okay to ask for support I promise ...

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    Tags:
    #mentalhealth,
    #depression,
    #mentalillness,
    #recovery