The Great Fire
This voice comes scurrying in like a fat plague rat when I least expect it. I'm armed with a barbed baseball bat and ready to strike. My mental health will not succumb to buboes; inflamed, painful thoughts pushing against my skull. Your infestation will not reach my positivity, locked deep within the crevasses of my brain. A great fire has arisen and scorches the areas of disease. Burn, burn it all away. Destroy the negativity running like sewage ...read more
“It’s not a tale, but a story that is constantly being written.”It’s not enough to simply see you from the outside. It’s easily enough to appreciate your strength, but that falls short from what they can’t see. You can’t fully appreciate the story when you only know the ending. What people don’t see will open their eyes forever. Those who share a similar understanding will find their way. How struggle and triumph lay just beyond ...read more
Straightening Things Out
Please note: this piece references self harm.
So my boyfriend and I straightened things out. Yesterday, I wasn't sure if we could continue in a relationship together. I felt so hurt, so wronged; abused, even. But it is possible that there are things outwith the realm of your understanding and imagination that are still true. He reacted angrily to my confession of self-harm. This hurt me greatly. But yesterday I realised that what I told him completely broke his heart and it ...read more
Getting out of the four walls...
I really love to take my twin girls somewhere outdoors, I'm a real sucker for fresh air and sunshine... or even pouring rain. I feel like my senses are just heightened and my mind seams to clear itself. Finding some sort of chaotic inner peace for the split second the girls aren't running in opposite directions. Getting out of the house can also make time go quicker, which sometimes can trigger me in to feeling ...read more