• Forever Cynic

    Diagnosed with Complex PTSD, now i know why i've been me.Living all these years with my torture, never knowing if it was nature or nurture. Hoping that i'm still seen as a man, but knowing you choose not to understand.Intent to punish and not to care, ignoring all the years i've been there. Giving you everything for 7 years, blood and sweat despite my tears. You have a real lack of understanding, why on myself i'm so demanding. After 7 years ...

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    Tags:
    survival,
    Recovery,
    Pain
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  • Pinpricks

    Needless needles all over my skin.They're hot and cold and I can't settle.Black, filling the gaps. Wish it swallowed them.Beetles. Biting, scratching at my thoughts.I calm and they swarm. Sludge, filling the gaps. Wish it drowned them.I can't stop. I can't start. can't breathe. I can't choose.No dreams. No future. Just a ghost.Anxious. Depressed. Frustrated. Sick. Sad. Weak. I wish I could see in the dark. 

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    Tags:
    Anxiety,
    Depression,
    Pain,
    future
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  • Ember

    Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide

    I'm so filled with this sorrow, can't get through today, can't bare to think about tomorrow.This pain, this pain, this pain, so indescribable i can't explain.Not part of this world nothing seems real, so numb with pain, i just can't feel.I'm the loneliest guy on this planet, this can't beb all to life....can it?Decision made my path is chosen, my time on earth will soon be frozen.To those i've known i'll be a memory, except ...

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    Tags:
    Pain,
    Despair
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  • The Final Chime

    Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide

     i just want to stop this pain, it falls on me like endlees rain.Why why why each day i cry, so much so my tears are dry.All i want is joy and gladness, i've lived too long in the shadows of sadness.All i feel inside is numb, knowing that i will succumb.My pain just never goes away, i realise now it's here to stay.No matter what i say, think or do, I'll never be normal unlike you.I've ...

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    Tags:
    Pain
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  • Love And Pain

    "Love and Pain" Love is in pain, It would hurt less, If our hearts, Just; Stopped beating, Bleeding feelings, Pain is within love, As; Love is within pain, Sadly, It is all; Part of the game, It should be written, In the name, Why is it, No matter, The frame, Love always, Ends in pain. By Carlo McNicholl ‪#‎cmn‬

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    Tags:
    Poem,
    Love,
    Pain,
    heartache
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  • silent tears

    SILENT TEARS Each day as evening starts to set The ache builds in her chest She knows that she must go to bed And try to get some rest She hugs her tear stained pillow close When no one is around And cries for the one's she loved and lost And screams without a shout Others see her in the day And thinks she's doing well But every day as evening sets She enters her ...

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    Tags:
    Pain,
    isolation,
    struggle
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  • Tattoos

    For the past 2 weeks iv been waiting for this day. The day I get my dagger tattoo on my thigh. It doesn't sound like a very feminine tattoo but it is as it has wings on it and a scroll that reads "every scar tells a story". I have 10 other tattoos and all of varying pain. My first tattoo I got just over 10 years ago and it hurt badly, but maybe it ...

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    Tags:
    Love,
    Tattoo,
    Sore,
    Self-Harm,
    Pain
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