• 99% Real : 1% Mania

    OH! That 1%. If only I could be real for 100% of the time. Would the grass have been greener for me, my family and friends? I fear it would not, life being life. It is just a rash of wishful thinking. That gremlin 1% precipitates, spontaneously, while working, knocking out reality in an instant. Like the wind blowing out a candle. Then I find myself trying to make everything right when it is out ...

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    Tags:
    mania,
    reflection,
    anxiety,
    love,
    self-worth
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  • Simple reality - childlike views :)

    It's the simple things in life which make me happy. A lifetime of suffering means that each moment and spark of excitement brings a childlike happiness. Some call the way I see the world as childish. Some label me odd and some ridicule and laugh at me. But on the good days, I wish others could see the world like I do. I wish others could enjoy the inspiration of a leaf on the ground, ...

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    Tags:
    psychosis,
    mania,
    recovery,
    schizophrenia,
    fear
  • Me, Myself and Mania?

    I am creative, I am flowing, the world looks wonderful and bright and people are fascinating and I can connect with everything around me. I see signs and meaning in everything. I am alive! Is depression finally over? Am I overly excited because I’m finally having a good day? Am I manic? Am I guilt tripping for having a bad day? Am I over thinking things? Is this anxiety taking over me now? Take a ...

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    Tags:
    anxiety,
    depression,
    creativity,
    mania