• The Deepest Sorrow

    I wish I felt anything but anger when I see a pregnant woman, affectionately caressing the home in which her baby grows safely. Pain wears the veil of anger so as not to be seen. It buries itself deep in the heart of me where it is safe from the eyes of others. I feel my stomach fall and hot tears prickle my eyes. They are cautious; refusing to fall and expose the pain. Anger surfaces in its place. Who ...

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    depression,
    anger,
    sadness,
    infertility,
    anxiety
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  • Soulmate fade

    So, you think you’ve found your soulmate?Have you really?Are you sure?  Are you trying to control her?Make her who you want to be? i thought I’d found my soulmateBut he’s straying from our pathNot taking me as I am But conforming meTo his ideal I need to get back on trackWith my soulmateBut I’m not sure he wants me no moreThinks I’m one of the Lost and found   

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    loss
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  • Deserted

    My heart doesn't cry with pain no moreMy heart cries with rage You promised me lovethen took it awaywhen I needed you most Abandoned, aloneim scared I'll never find love again  I've had to take myself into my own handsand never give up 

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    loss
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  • The Past

    You took my soulWhen you left meAlone and heartbrokenNo more to liveNo more to giveI Can’t find my peaceI’m searching for myselfI’m with careful thoughtI’ll never returnI’ll never to  be bought x 

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    loss
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  • Don't do it. (Trigger warning)

    Please note: this story references suicide. Death is never dignified, but the ending of a good story should be magnificent. Not swinging from a rope with shit, piss and jizz running down your legs, or vomiting luminous yellow bile and a chalky cocktail of pharmaceuticals surrounding you. No poetry, no love letters, no essays that you write, can explain away the pain that you inflict on others when you take away your life, it is ...

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    Tags:
    loss,
    grief,
    suicide
  • The Ways Of Others And My Micro Failings

    Without sounding pathetic the ways of others tend to have been stronger. Events take over and I am in someone else's hands. Where did my power go? Then risks are taken on my behalf and their consequences are again held in someone else's hands. I am left with something I do not want to do, silenced and with no voice. Such are the perplexities that worry and frighten my soul. When I am surrounded by ...

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    Tags:
    identity,
    power,
    sense of self,
    loss,
    self-worth
  • It happens sometimes.

    I am confident in my own worth and then I forget who I am. My value, my goals, my talent, my love all worthless without self belief. The things that I love I’m uncertain of, can I really write? Am I a good mother? Am I a good girlfriend and friend? Am I really good at my profession? Is my perception completely off? Do people actually like me? Is my poetry all that good? Always ...

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    Tags:
    anxiety,
    stress,
    loss,
    Depression