• Mountains of Awareness

    I see myself on this top of a mountain looking out to this amazing view. I'm just looking out thinking of my life. The past,present and future. I'm wearing my normal clothes looking out and thinking. I'm with myself but I'm now thinking of something different. I know I'm doing ok and progressing forward with my life. However I look up and see the next mountain top in the horizon. It shows that I'm here and ...

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  • Me

    Please note: this story references suicidal thinking

    Feeling like i have an alter egoI try to find me and wonder where did me goTrying to decide who is the real meAlter ego or not will i ever see The layers are many and thickI don't know which me is me to pickThis makes me feel lost and confusedIsolated and bemused Am i the me that's trapped as a childThe young boy onto whom misery was piledAm i the me that is the young boy ...

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  • The Journey for Love and Peace

    I was born in a village near Nine Question Hill, where Chinese Emperor Shun was buried. My father went to university and then had a job in Tianshui, Gansu, China.In October 2000, my father was killed in a traffic accident. I flew back home to support my mother, yet sadly she too died soon after. I felt a terrible loss at my parents’ deaths and was so regretful that I couldn’t help my mother more.In ...

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  • Struggling

    Struggling this week. Don't want to get out of the bed. Don't want to function. Don't want to do anything at all. I put on a smile for everyone else, but I am struggling inside. I hate the way I look. I hate the way that I feel. Food is my drug. It is the only thing that helps me cope with what is going on in my life. I don't want to go without ...

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    food
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  • Surviving

    I thought I had it all under control. The less they knew, the less they would meddle, and the less questions would be asked and I forced to answer. Uncomfortable questions, questions I barely managed to ask myself. "How are you?" - Easily saved with a "I'm alright, what about you? How are you? What's going on in your life?", brushing off the real answer by asking them several back. Nodding and smiling as they ...

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  • Hope, Endurance, Achievement, Fruit, Resilience

    Hope, Endurance, Achievement, Fruit, Resilience Hope when all else fails and all seems impossible. Endurance when unwell and in staying well. Achievement in getting well and keeping well. Fruit life itself Resilience for putting up with the whole process in the first place. What the human spirit endures and achieves in mental health is quite phenomenal and it should not be undervalued or overlooked. It is not mindless suffering. It requires work to keep it ...

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  • Overcoming addiction and alcoholism-There is Hope

    My name is Stephanie, and I am a recovering alcoholic and addict. I remember how miserable I was when I was using and drinking. Getting sober isn’t nearly as hard as keeping up with our lives when we are out there drinking or using. It’s amazing how different I am today, nearly four years later. Through Bradford Health Services, AA, my family, my new (real) friends, and my AA sponsor, I gained my life back. ...

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    coping strategies,
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  • Let Me Speak

    The fear of having no voice. I scream & shout but still there’s no sound. . . I lost my voice well I thought I did. So I stop writing & I stop believing. All my misbeliefs and heartache and overthinking started consuming my mind body & soul. Not good! To put in words how, I wouldn’t even know what to start with. If I start rambling on, just let me ! I seem all ...

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    depression,
    suicide,
    suicidal thoughts,
    life,
    Thinking
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  • Soundtrack to my life

    I often hear the soundtrack to my life as I am living it.. the love scenes, the tears, the skipping in the rain, the dramatic parts, the lusty ones, the exciting ones, the calm. Sometimes as I reminisce I hear the tunes that made my teenage years, the ones that cover my triumphs and my suffering and of course being the romantic depressive that I am, I've even picked my funeral songs. What a nice ...

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  • One Thing After Another

    So I have done the hard stuff in relation to my child abuse, just waiting for the phone call to say he has been arrested, and I'm not the most patient person so this is torture, but knowing it's coming is putting a positive spin on it all. Although still don't feel real, I still feel that this has all been a dream so kind of need the phone call just to clarify that it ...

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  • Psychotic Perceptions

    Psychotic Perceptions Reality not being where you think you are Neil Stamper Necessities Psychotic Perceptions has 4000 words approximately. The perception of me on the front cover was captured by a fellow patient, Becky. This book is dedicated to my family, whose suffering has been greater than mine. Any and all comments are welcomed: neil@wordpower.org.uk First published 2 October 2009 as an ebook available from: http://www.wordpower.org.uk © Neil Stamper 2009 Experience I was diagnosed bipolar ...

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    psychosis,
    autobiography,
    history,
    bipolar,
    perceptions