• The Beast

     The Beast Its 3 30 am and I'm lying here in a different reality to the one that I inhabit normally.   For the most part, I'm enveloped by a beast... a beast that has large black slippery arms and legs.    I am sitting inside the beast whose abdomen is a black place.   Its a place where in order to protect myself, I become infant, foetal, primal, instinctual, isolated, irrational and childlike.     It is this emotional ...

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    Tags:
    depression,
    window,
    terror,
    anxiety,
    withdrawal
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  • As darkness arises

    As darkness arises Silence all the laughter everyone has gone, Leave me here let life roll on. Shut out the light I don't wish you to see, This empty existence Now en-capuriting me. Close all the doors let no one in, The person you knew, Is no longer me. Lock all the windows make this my cell, The dark is my prison this is my hell. Block all those sounds let life roll along, I ...

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    Tags:
    fear,
    isolation
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  • silent tears

    SILENT TEARS Each day as evening starts to set The ache builds in her chest She knows that she must go to bed And try to get some rest She hugs her tear stained pillow close When no one is around And cries for the one's she loved and lost And screams without a shout Others see her in the day And thinks she's doing well But every day as evening sets She enters her ...

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    Tags:
    Pain,
    isolation,
    struggle
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  • Isolation

    I'm aware of the fact that recovery can mean living successfully while symptoms continue. At the moment I feel that I need somewhere to express my sense of isolation, to lessen this by reading other people's experiences - why is why I have joined the network.

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    Tags:
    expressing myself,
    isolation