• Hope

    What is life without hopeIt's like a shower without soapWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to want something What is life without hopeIt's like the sea without boatsWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to love something What is life without hopeIt's like freezing in winter without a coatWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to need something What is life withour hopeIt's like elections without a voteWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to stand for ...

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  • Sometimes

    Sometimes it snows in May but summer always comesSometimes it feels like the world has stopped but it always turnsSometimes it feels like the mountain can't be climbedBut Everest is conquered all the time Sometimes it feels like hope and despairSometimes i never want to go thereSometimes i think i will never overcomeBut men with no legs can still run Sometimes it feels like the sun will never riseSometimes it feels like there's no hope in my ...

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  • My Recovery Story

    June 28, 2018My Recovery StoryWhen I was eight years old, I was not functioning well. I did not sleep, and if I did, I would wake up screaming. I did not eat, and if I did, I would throw up whatever I was able to ingest. I was not attending school. My life was consumed by the thought of death. ...

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  • A Letter To Update Myself

         A varying ability for taking on responsibility on a daily basis is not the same as being irresponsible. You can be good with varying power while being less able at times. My conclusion is this: the experience of inexperience and a lack of confidence because of it is what develops my skills.   To quick tempered, impatient individuals it might be regarded as, inefficient time wasting and a source of trouble. “He does not ...

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  • The Beach

                                            The Beach " Next stop Phi Phi Islan " the Thai tour guide shouts in broken English.  The rickety boat speeds through the water with black diesel fumes spouting from the motor like an old jakey puffing out the smoke from his black lungs.The boat slows to a stop before we see the beach. I ...

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  • Having A Chance Means A Lot To Me

    I know myself by my self-loathing and unreality like a signature tune. When I am well it can be endured easily. When very unwell it could lead to my death. The coin of mental health/mental illness spins in the darkness and falls at the feet of those who can care. It is flipped by a mixture of biology, chance, spirit and fate and I have to be ready for both outcomes. Those who care know ...

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  • Accept loss forever

    A few pithy words form Jack Kerouac. Yes you do have to accept loss for ever. Even if we did achieve the impossible of racial and individual immortality, entropy and accident would intervene. Submissive open and listening. In a world of neo-capitalist brutal completion that would be a true gift. Finally, yes I suppose without fear and shame dignity comes like gentle rain on parched, cracked skin. Maybe even to be in love with your ...

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  • Hope in the storm

    Overcoming the Power of numbers. Today, I let myself down, I step back on the scale and seen those numbers, those numbers which drive me deeper into illness. I have managed to refrain from doing this myself as I know it becomes a game and already just thinking of attending this makes my eating disorder mind take over the progress I am making in recovery- and I know this is very little and not been ...

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  • Past to Present - Revovery is not only possible but inevitable!!!

    Warning: This piece contains references to self harm PAST to PRESENT RECOVERY IS NOT ONLY POSSIBLE BUT INEVITABLE!! Cloudy thoughts and self-harm: positivity is the charm. To the one's with the scars and broken hearts, whose smiles and tears aren't far apart. To the one's with blood flowing from wounded arms, I know the struggles of self-harm. I know the feeling of finding comfort in a knife and, the aching desire to end my life. ...

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  • Sing little birdy sing?

    I respect all respective respectful resplendent cultures as I can be the best I can be without me taking it all too seriously when it's more tolerable for all of us to see the joke as a joke as I can easily take a joke as should about as far as it goes to where that's pretty much all this is and will go on being for ah that work that I've pit into sayin ...

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  • Oh God my God?

    As someone who is struggling a bit to a lot to see what's going on all around me could you please tell me what I can't possibly tell myself for fear of the worst of my condition being monitored by all and sundry whatever that means as I'm sure you will tell me when we know me much better than I could an impossibility be when I've diagnosed or been diagnosed with a life long ...

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  • Thanks for nothing?

    When I say nothing I really mean that from the heart ♥ but from her heart ♥ as I lost my heart ♥ to nothing a long time ago when I stopped trying to be something in not?

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  • More here than there as that isn't quite where I'd place myself?

    Perhaps I'm the most decided of the very undecided having no idea of where I am a part of the many a life to be brigade far more aware of being a highly likely member of the real to unreal fire in my brigand veins?

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  • Now as much as forever?

    It will be most interesting for me but perhaps not so much for you to be made more aware of whether the mediators are here for us or there for us 24/7?

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  • Blue Room

    When I was with you, way back, sitting next to you on that blue couch with our feet on the blue carpet, eating nachos and playing video games with nothing but the glow from the television as our light source. Those nights were the best, the days were still bad, but the blue room was my safe haven. Hanging out til 2 or 3am, just being with each other, laughing and talking, all the while ...

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  • A letter from the unwise....

    Does that seem subversive? Well why not? Yoda had his faults. Was he that much wiser when he finally evaporated leaving Luke, Leia, Han and Chewwie to sort out the Alliance and finally defeat the Empire on their own. Yoda left them to deal with the Jedi's unfinished business. They shared the responsibility with relish. So my son...wiser you may not become..but you survive the crushing of days. Hope is contained in a sense of ...

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