• I'm trying

    Currently on antidepressants to deal with the anxiety. No difference so far (day 4), and having some side effects. Hopefully will see some light soon as I'm willing to stick to them and give them a chance. Although I've thought about leaving my part-time job to focus on my mental health. Not sure if I should do this or not, feeling really conflicted right now. But I'm trying.

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    anxiety,
    stress,
    job,
    anxious,
    future
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  • I Wish

    I wish for the future that I will not feel stuck in this mindset that I have for 6 whole years now. To not panic or feel nauseous whenever I develop feelings for someone. To actually be able to enjoy life with someone else and to eat around them without a single worry. I wish at some point I will find love and be able to enjoy it to its fullest, whether it lasts or ...

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    anxiety,
    stress,
    anxious,
    future,
    Worry
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  • The Future Is Bright

    The Future Is Bright I think that everyone is a little bit obsessed with the future. We all have some sort of 'plan' or some sort of ideal version of it, and people just love asking you about it. What do you want to do when you grow up? What university are you applying to? What are you going to study? Where do you see yourself in five years? Do you think you'll get married? Do ...

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  • Ideal Future - A Dare to Dream

    My Ideal Future - A Dare to DreamInspired by a local writing class, we were given a title and several pointers of our perfect future in each sector. My Ideal future goes like this...I have my ideal man, an Adonis if you like, MY Adonis!Big alluring, meek blue eyes that draw me in & mesmorise, broad square shoulders encasing me in his hold.His floppy dark hair. ...

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    future,
    Ideal,
    daredream
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  • What is Recovery

    What Does Recovery Mean to You? This is an age old question, I've answered it a few times and I think I've answered it differently every single time I've done it. It all comes down to one thing, to the main issue. My biggest issue is my eating disorder, which leads to my self-hatred, my rubbish self-confidence, my weight and a lot of frustration unlike any that I've felt since I was about ten years old. The ...

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    Eating disorder,
    Autism,
    self-worth,
    positive thinking,
    self-help
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  • Diving in the waves

    We swam in the oceanIn October you see Some may find that foolish But it made us happy as can be  I buried a dead fishIn the sand In the sun I hope it went onwards To another unknown land The light on the oceanReflected our joy Playing volleyball And divingHolding hands on this land The splashes, salt and sand  A tenuous decision To dive in deep But one we’ll always memoriseForever to keep.

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  • What does my ideal future look like?

    What does my ideal future look like? The quiet whir of servosand stepper motorsas my robotic domestichousehold assistant washes dishesand sweeps floors. The smell of cleancity air fills my lingsas zero-emission carssidle by on well-kept streets.Full buses commutemultitudes of multi-ethnicliving-wage workersto Union jobswith great benefits,accessible facilitiesand iron cladanti-discrimination legislation. Private schools are bulldozedor turned into homeless sheltersand community centres. Golf courses are turnedinto public parks,nature reserves and camp grounds. The "male/female" checkboxeson birth certificates arereplaced with love heartsand infinity symbols. The ...

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    hope,
    future
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  • Regret

    Regret postpones lifeIt holds you in the past like a viceTakes a hold and won't let goEats you up and takes your soul But you have to live life with no regretAnd look to the future you haven't lived yetI have some time left that isn't in the pastI"m going to make my future last The past is our knowledge and the present our mistakeThe future we always leave too lateBut i have come to my sensesAnd i'm ...

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    future
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  • Inspiration

    Blaine is my inspirationHe is also my determinationTo overcome my struggled pastAnd get busy living.....fast I want to see his future unfoldI want to see him as i grow oldFrom the first word he says To his first school days To see him become whatever he desiresAnd see him light his life's firesTo watch him look to the skies aboveTo see him smile and find true love I want Blaine to know he can wake up the nationBlaine will always ...

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    the,
    future
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  • Pinpricks

    Needless needles all over my skin.They're hot and cold and I can't settle.Black, filling the gaps. Wish it swallowed them.Beetles. Biting, scratching at my thoughts.I calm and they swarm. Sludge, filling the gaps. Wish it drowned them.I can't stop. I can't start. can't breathe. I can't choose.No dreams. No future. Just a ghost.Anxious. Depressed. Frustrated. Sick. Sad. Weak. I wish I could see in the dark. 

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    Anxiety,
    Depression,
    Pain,
    future
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  • Freedom

    To be broken or to break?To love or to hate?To give or to take?Or to simply forsake? The world still spins roundBut where’s love to be found? In the touch of a motherin the helping of anotherRegardless of raceDespite the difficulties we face We must unite togetherFace this evilBreak it down Freedom can winTake over from sinDefine a new strategy Get rid of our apathy No place for the fascists In a land of the freeEducation for the massesThat simply must be No ...

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    hope,
    future
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  • An Old Skin

    A reflex to look backwards,just to be sure it's not still trailing,it's not catching up on me.Me: it's betrayer.An old skin,worn and peeling.I run my hands over myselfI reassure myself at least three times a daythat it hasn't made it's wayback there, behind my eyes,an old, dead self.Young and dying. Brittle skin,hard enough to crack, I watch out for the slow hardening,the scales appearing.Soften to myself,flesh too soft to break,but stretch and train its shape. 

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    sense of self,
    recovery,
    future
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  • What's Inside

     “It’s not a tale, but a story that is constantly being written.”It’s not enough to simply see you from the outside. It’s easily enough to appreciate your strength, but that falls short from what they can’t see. You can’t fully appreciate the story when you only know the ending. What people don’t see will open their eyes forever. Those who share a similar understanding will find their way. How struggle and triumph lay just beyond ...

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    strength,
    self love,
    encouragement,
    positivity,
    future
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  • My Story: Overcoming of a Storm

    “Getting lost in the darkness while it’s staring back at you is something that stays with you. I am scared to enter the night with loneliness by my side. It takes my hand and leads me into an unfortunate familiar place. Many of my questions are left unknown. I find myself wandering blindly into the future. It’s hard to admit it, but I’m scared. Not knowing when and how severe the next attack is, is ...

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    hope,
    anxiety,
    recovery,
    self love,
    future
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