• Sad or Pathetic?

    Do you ever feel like you are stuck? Like everyone around you is doing so well in life and succeeding in everything they do? I am in a job I used to LOVE. Like seriously I was one of those people that was so happy with my job and life. Then at some point maybe even before my accident, my life hit a wall. \ Now don't get me wrong, I am still happy I ...

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  • Recognising A Turbulent Pattern In Life

    I would like to share two areas of self observation; One is in experiencing consolation with God and the other is while experiencing desolation without Him. For me desolation is accompanied by an added danger when it is prolonged or aggravated by my mental illness. I feel an anxiety that I might not recover from it at all. On the other hand consolation becomes worrying when due to slight mania things are too good for ...

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  • A fathers love

    Please note: this story references abuse. "you taught me how to love someone who did not love you" the words of a good friend and I taught her this by loving my father. Its funny because I'm sure you would think he was an absent father or was an alcoholic or something along the lines of what a father who doesn't love you would fit in. Unfortunately my father was around he and my mother ...

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  • Emotions

    They will come Every day I expect them but they are still Unexpected They do not come in short bursts They come in a huge overwhelming blast No way out of my body Sometimes I cry but They don't come out in my tears Automatically I bleed but They don't come out in my blood I panic There are no distractions big enough to offer relief I talk Sometimes they ease If I am alone ...

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  • Emotions

    Emotional waves of razors and glass Thick, heavy darkness that will not pass Trapped alone in a metal barred head Going through the motions of the already dead Unseen through layers of disguises and masks Allowing the program to complete daily tasks Anxious enough to jump out of my skin Don't know where the parts end and where I begin Feeling like a child and looking like a freak No hope and no care, the ...

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    emotions,
    suicidal thoughts,
    poem,
    self harm