• Territorial

    A force inside my mind,inside my chest,a force that feels something like pain,but not quite,something like fear,urges me to go.  How much will I surrender to this feeling,this foreign part that comes from me,but is not me.Is not welcome. This feeling speaks a urgent language,it speaks to me in ultimatumsabout what I can and cannot endure. It says 'enough' several times a day,but I don't leave when it says leave.I don't give in when it tells me to.And ...

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    Tags:
    identity,
    recovery,
    survival,
    despair,
    endure
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  • My Mental Wealth

    My Mental Wealth Story While working in a stressful job as senior manager in NHS, I became depressed and suicidal, lonely and despairing. Something had to change...and it did. I had a break-down or, as I later called it,- a break-through. I went through a process, lifestyle changes, prescriptions and various therapeutic activities that helped me to get my mental wealth back. My mental wealth includes: friendships and time with friends; meditation, both mindfulness and ...

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    Tags:
    metta,
    depression,
    mindfulness,
    despair,
    stress
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  • All at Sea

    I am all at sea I have backed the sails and they are flogging I do not know which way to push the tiller To port? To face the onslaught of waves To starboard? To run away with the waves Instead I am hove to, stuck, going nowhere I am taking water, sinking Bail out or head for shallow water? I man the bilge pumps As fast as I pump out, water flows in I ...

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    Tags:
    hope,
    sea,
    despair,
    Flipflops
  • Today it is Hard

    Today it is easy being a flip flop girl I am funny, confident & bubbly I am happy, enjoying life I am wearing my pink flip flops Today it is hard being a flip flop girl Where has that funny & confident person gone? Unhappy, no joy in life I am wearing my pink flip flops Today it is easy being a flip flop girl I am intelligent, diligent & creative I listen, give good ...

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    Tags:
    hope,
    depression,
    despair,
    Flipflops