Like the changing flowersMetamorphosiseSo do the mood swings in my mind On the good days I am the sunflowersatisfied in sunlight and content with just beingexistingtaking up space in the worldletting myself be alive and appreciative of what I am surrounded by...On the bad days I am the thistleclosed up in a tight bud read more
Procuring A Vocabulary
Very often in the early stages people did not know what I was talking about. It took time but eventually a vocabulary which illustrated my mental health condition emerged. It is important that it did so.By choosing words and creating definitions of my own I gained back some control. Where by I could build a robust bridge to reality. With clear, accurate images depicting the state of my mental health. So I could explain what ...read more
Signs of my recovery
One of the first signs that I was getting better was that I could read again. For a long time I couldn't concentrate when I read, so reading novels, no matter how familiar, was no longer pleasurable. Trying to read anything academic or 'formal' made me feel like a toddler trying to read a code combined of Hebrew, Arabic and Japanese! So when I started to be able to concentrate again reading became a really ...read more
Me, Myself and Mania?
I am creative, I am flowing, the world looks wonderful and bright and people are fascinating and I can connect with everything around me. I see signs and meaning in everything. I am alive! Is depression finally over? Am I overly excited because I’m finally having a good day? Am I manic? Am I guilt tripping for having a bad day? Am I over thinking things? Is this anxiety taking over me now? Take a ...read more