Seeing the psychiatrist when they don't see you.
My usual psychiatrist is off sick. 'You don't seem emotionally unstable to me at the moment' said the Dr, who I'd sat with for under half an hour. Yeah mate, that's not really what Emotionally Unstable/Borderline Personality Disorder is. You should probably know that, considering you're the one with the degree in this shit. He commends me for coping med free and after hearing my reasoning agrees that at this time with my current routine ...read more
The Stigma of BPD - Seen in Professionals
I was initially diagnosed with depression and after a while borderline personality disorder was diagnosed too. This is how I experienced the change in attitudes when this happened. I am depressed - we are here at any time I have BPD - stop wasting our time I am depressed - we can see you are distressed I have BPD - you are not distressed at all I am depressed - we know self harming is ...read more
My Safe Place
Today I am "surviving" I didn't sleep well last night which really isn't like me at all. I took my girlfriend to the dentist at 8am and when we came back we slept for another few hours before she had to get up for work. I was actually really looking forward to getting home. I just wanted a bit of time to myself, alone, in my own safe place. After all when you feel a ...read more
Enough For Me
I have had three men who go in and out of my head for years now. They are very important to me and, although they really distress me, I feel like I need them around. Recently I spoke to someone from my local crisis team who said I should try to accept them when they are around and when they aren't around. I've been trying to do this but it's hard because I feel like ...read more