Please Note: This story references sexual abuse and trauma.
MY WEAKNESSI feel so angry with myself for being weak and allowing myself to be manipulated and used and question myself daily why did I let this happen? Am I so desperate for love I seek it without thinking about the consequences of putting myself at risk? Especially when I am vulnerable and too trusting and others pray on this and draw you in to them resulting in you not really being yourself. At ...read more
MY NEW JOURNEY
Please note: this story references trauma and abuse.
After many years of battling depression & mental health finally being diagnosed with Bipolar seven years ago which resulted in being sectioned and admitted to Hospital. This caused me lots of stress having been admitted to the same Hospital in my late 20's after suffering a breakdown after my first long term relationship broke up. In hindsight there have been many underlying factors in my life which I have not dealt with from my ...read more
Turning a Tide of Tears
Turning a Tide of Tears - a personal perspective on living with Bi-Polar Bi-Polar does not define me but it does impact heavily on me as an individual, in my family and in my dealings with everyday life. It’s part of the great family of taboos that come under the heading of ‘Mental Health’ problems. We are not comfortable talking about these issues and often try to keep them hidden as some sort of guilty ...read more
Recently, someone asked me what I thought was a simple question at first....What is recovery? I thought for a bit and came to the conclusion that for me, recovery is not what I initially thought it was when first diagnosed with bipolar 10years ago. If you think about the word "recover" it makes you think of getting something back and that is how I felt about my mental health recovery. I felt I had to ...read more
Be Your Own Best Friend
Be your own best friend- Look at you. You are still here. Still here, alive, with us and living. You've overcome so much, and yet the battle goes on. All you've achieved- amazing and more successful than most. Some dark days, some just days. Days you feel numb, or sad or nothing. But you do still have days. Those days are yours, you earned them. Darkness is never far from your mind. But it's your ...read more
secret daughters of autumn
how to take antipsychotic medication by dm gillis to sleep like a seed & dream of a garden the stem I will be bent under late snow voices & oils on canvas their lips their stilled tongues but rapid eyes they think of me as family from a tragic buttoned distance a manic Christmas poet psychotic still as a century dire oh dire sleeping the Seroquel sleep the Olanzapine street corner raving at the yellow ...read more
Psychotic Perceptions Reality not being where you think you are Neil Stamper Necessities Psychotic Perceptions has 4000 words approximately. The perception of me on the front cover was captured by a fellow patient, Becky. This book is dedicated to my family, whose suffering has been greater than mine. Any and all comments are welcomed: firstname.lastname@example.org First published 2 October 2009 as an ebook available from: http://www.wordpower.org.uk © Neil Stamper 2009 Experience I was diagnosed bipolar ...read more