• The Gift of Depression

    I was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety at the age of 19 although in hindsight I was suffering from it for a long time. According to my mother, the family doctor detected signs of anxiety at the age of two when my mother took me to see him after I'd developed a chonic twitch in my eye. I suppose in hindsight, having depression was not surprising. Depression had plagued my grandparents, my father and ...

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    depression
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  • My Story: Overcoming of a Storm

    “Getting lost in the darkness while it’s staring back at you is something that stays with you. I am scared to enter the night with loneliness by my side. It takes my hand and leads me into an unfortunate familiar place. Many of my questions are left unknown. I find myself wandering blindly into the future. It’s hard to admit it, but I’m scared. Not knowing when and how severe the next attack is, is ...

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    recovery,
    anxiety,
    self love,
    hope,
    future
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  • The Beast

     The Beast Its 3 30 am and I'm lying here in a different reality to the one that I inhabit normally.   For the most part, I'm enveloped by a beast... a beast that has large black slippery arms and legs.    I am sitting inside the beast whose abdomen is a black place.   Its a place where in order to protect myself, I become infant, foetal, primal, instinctual, isolated, irrational and childlike.     It is this emotional ...

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    depression,
    window,
    terror,
    anxiety,
    withdrawal
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  • ADHD, PTSD, ANXIETY

    I am really struggling at the moment, I feel so down.Lately my anixety has been really, really bad. Everything is setting me off into a blur of not being able to breathe, not being able to see straight. Not being able to cope. People are convinced I have ADHD as well. Do you have any idea how it feels having people judge me and say I have this problem and that problem. No one understands what it ...

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    anxiety,
    Drowning,
    help
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  • Recovery

    You spend so long trying trying everyone’s patience – especially your own. Exhausted, you bite your tongue and grit your teeth get through the days fight against the nights. All that effort spent gripping tightly to life. But living means more than being here. And as the effort eases you succeed. You are here. What next?

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    anxiety,
    depression,
    recovery,
    PTSD
  • Sleeves

    Please note: this piece references self-harm. I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve – never have. Instead, I keep it closely guarded, hidden discreetly. For years, my sleeves were a hiding place, not for my heart – but for secret hurts on skin, written deeply . But now, wearing what I like I hide my hurts next to my heart. And though I think about them I’m trying my best not to feel.

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    anxiety,
    depression,
    recovery,
    self harm
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  • Dear Friend

    Dear Friend, I know you are struggling the now. You don't know whats happening or whats going on but there is plenty of help at home and at uni. There is mindulness, relaxation methods and many other amazing things you can do to help you. The techniques work, use them. Put them into practice. You will benefit from it. I know its tough but darling so are you. From your friend supporting you

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    anxiety,
    helpful,
    self love
  • Hello hope my old friend.....you tease

    As the civil war within my mind rages on darkness prevails, emptiness and loneliness as its allies. This morning however, hope has laid her seed, I pray it blooms. I woke to the all too familiar feeling of anxiety, an inability to lift my head from the pillow. I'd been here many times before, and not moved for hours even days. A battle sprung within, a fierce back and forth of thoughts, blows traded between ...

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    hope,
    anxiety,
    depression
  • What makes me Resilient?

    Please note: this story references abuse and suicide. What makes me Resilient? I like to keep up to date on the latest research into psychology, especially that which helps me survive mentally in a pre-apocalyptic world. There has been much more noise about person resilience in the last few years. Some say it can be picked up’ by being outdoors, for example, having been a Girl Guide or Boy Scout, when we were young. Perhaps ...

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    Tags:
    depression,
    community,
    trauma,
    anxiety,
    Bullying
  • 99% Real : 1% Mania

    OH! That 1%. If only I could be real for 100% of the time. Would the grass have been greener for me, my family and friends? I fear it would not, life being life. It is just a rash of wishful thinking. That gremlin 1% precipitates, spontaneously, while working, knocking out reality in an instant. Like the wind blowing out a candle. Then I find myself trying to make everything right when it is out ...

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    mania,
    reflection,
    anxiety,
    love,
    self-worth
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  • Where is the off switch??

    *TRIGGER WARNING* Can someone tell me where the off switch is please as the constant bombardment of thoughts are nothing short of painful. I really do hope that writing this is as cathartic an experience as I expect as this is my last hope. I can tell you exactly how I feel because you won't judge me will you (please don't, I'm far too sensitive right now) Frankly, I feel like I am wallowing - ...

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    anxiety,
    depression,
    terror
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  • Toolbox

    So your treatment team tells you you have all the tools. So you just don't use them. Have they checked your toolbox lately? No, they haven't. They mean well, but if they looked closer, they'd see that it's rusted shut, and you're searching for answers on how to open it and use what's actually inside. Maybe the tools are obsolete. Maybe they've been stolen. You're not sure anymore--you haven't looked inside for so long. No ...

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    Tags:
    anxiety,
    depression,
    eating disorder,
    #Recovery
  • It happens sometimes.

    I am confident in my own worth and then I forget who I am. My value, my goals, my talent, my love all worthless without self belief. The things that I love I’m uncertain of, can I really write? Am I a good mother? Am I a good girlfriend and friend? Am I really good at my profession? Is my perception completely off? Do people actually like me? Is my poetry all that good? Always ...

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    anxiety,
    stress,
    loss,
    Depression
  • Saved Draft

    All aone and scared. All Inside. How much longer? Who cares?

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    anxiety,
    Depression
  • What Someone With A Mental Health Condition Looks Like

    What Someone With a Mental Health Condition Looks Like Well yeah, I have mental health conditions but I don't look any different from anyone else. Some people think that you need to look ill or sad to prove you have a mental health condition but in reality, it is something that doesn't always show! I have suffered with mental health conditions most of my life, but for the past year, things have gotten worse. I ...

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    anxiety,
    depression,
    recovery
  • Sometimes you just got to eat the frog......

    Anxiety. A damn pain in the arse (literally) But...also a reminder (apologies to any animal lovers - I am too and wouldn't eat any of the animals I am about to refer to - its just my way of putting things into context) A reminder that sometimes you sometimes just need to eat the frog (if you have something horrible or scary you need to do - just get it over and done with). But ...

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    anxiety,
    challenges
  • Adventure of a Lifetime

    I always said I would like to write a book about my journey - maybe this is the time. I can do it in little bite sized chunks which suit me. And what a journey it has been - and still is. 10 years ago in June I tried to take my own life. It made perfect sense at that time as in my head the world and my family would be better off without ...

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    depression,
    suicide,
    PMDD,
    anxiety,
    survival
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  • Me, Myself and Mania?

    I am creative, I am flowing, the world looks wonderful and bright and people are fascinating and I can connect with everything around me. I see signs and meaning in everything. I am alive! Is depression finally over? Am I overly excited because I’m finally having a good day? Am I manic? Am I guilt tripping for having a bad day? Am I over thinking things? Is this anxiety taking over me now? Take a ...

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    anxiety,
    depression,
    creativity,
    mania