Please Note: This story references sexual abuse and trauma.
MY WEAKNESSI feel so angry with myself for being weak and allowing myself to be manipulated and used and question myself daily why did I let this happen? Am I so desperate for love I seek it without thinking about the consequences of putting myself at risk? Especially when I am vulnerable and too trusting and others pray on this and draw you in to them resulting in you not really being yourself. At ...read more
MY NEW JOURNEY
Please note: this story references trauma and abuse.
After many years of battling depression & mental health finally being diagnosed with Bipolar seven years ago which resulted in being sectioned and admitted to Hospital. This caused me lots of stress having been admitted to the same Hospital in my late 20's after suffering a breakdown after my first long term relationship broke up. In hindsight there have been many underlying factors in my life which I have not dealt with from my ...read more
It's over..... It's over, concluded, totally demolished anger, betrayal, utterly acknowledged shame, denial, personally embraced pain, injustice, staring you in the face detached, clinical, simply isolated power, control, secretly perpetrated hunger, starvation, numb reduction impact, terror, subtle destruction.read more
A Chronicle At Daybreak - patience in getting up.
A chronicle at daybreak - Patience in getting up. Understanding his morning blues when he wakes up and how he gets up was key to Bob's salvation. "Its a delicate, vital process" He admits to himself not to be taken lightly. The sorrow he feels when he awakes is like a mournful cockerel crowing, where long , black, thin shadows prevail and there is a surreal sunrise to overcome with reality to embrace later. He ...read more
Get over it.....What have you got to be depressed about? those 2 phrases seriously get my back up!! If I knew the answers I wouldn't be feeling the way I do! People really think its super simple and it really isn't, I don't think they realise that my brain is completely fogged, it feels like Spaghetti Junction in there! I don't want to feel like this but if I could stop it I would!read more