• My Weakness

    Please Note: This story references sexual abuse and trauma.

    MY WEAKNESSI feel so angry with myself for being weak and allowing myself to be manipulated and used and question myself daily why did I let this happen?  Am I so desperate for love I seek it without thinking about the consequences of putting myself at risk?  Especially when I am vulnerable and too trusting and others pray on this and draw you in to them resulting in you not really being yourself.  At ...

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    anger,
    recovery,
    abuse,
    love,
    bipolar
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  • The Mask

    It’s intoxicating in the beginning; to see behind the mask they wear in public. The one that the World sees. A persona that draws you in, makes you trust, makes you care, makes you love. And you do.  It feels so deeply personal, like you’re connected on a baser level. It becomes an obsession, to see the most inner workings of their mind. A craving like no other. It feels like it means ...

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    Tags:
    dealing with past experiences,
    abuse,
    reflection,
    Relationship
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  • Abandoned

    My mum moved to Canada roughly four years before I was born. She met a man. They got married and along came me. The truth was he was a horrible man. She was on her own in Canada, no family there. He was all she had until I was born. He didn't even go with her when I was born, she did it all by herself. He never wanted anything to do with me. She ...

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    Abandonment,
    abuse,
    childhood,
    scared,
    pathetic
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  • Welcome to the world of pain and suffering

    Sweet dreams were broken When I looked up to the sky Hateful words spoken I thought to say my goodbyes When times were tough to strive You've shattered my hopes of dreams and love Left me weeping preparing to be hurt I trusted you with my full life Whilst you gave me so much pain But, things from your side were different Of putting all the blame I thought things would change But, instead became ...

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    Tags:
    abuse,
    Guilt,
    betrayal,
    pain
  • It's Time

    OK so the past 24 hours have been a bit of a whirlwind but a huge step in the right direction for me. After 10+ years of suffering in silence I am now ready to report the childhood abuse that happened to me.......................... and you know whats really strange I actually feel nothing. I haven't cried, regressed, screamed, shouted, etc....... instead I have been cool, calm and collected. I don't know whether this is because ...

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    Tags:
    support,
    feelings,
    families,
    childhood,
    strong