I can do this!

I go back to uni today! I’m determined not to let my aniexty get the best of me. I will be alright. Last night, I was overthinking and sinking into old habits of negative thoughts and excuses. But today, I will be fine. I have to tell myself this, what other option do I have? I will get up, finish packing, pray I can get the last bits in the car, say goodbye to siblings and drive to uni. When I get there i will unpack the car, collect my keys and move in. I will do all this with a smile on my face! I will say hello to the strangers that will be my flatmates for the next year and I will not worry about the work. All will be fine! It has to be. I have so much to gain from this scary last year at uni, I have friends to find, a job to get, and a degree to complete. And I can do it. Can’t I ? There is no need to be scared and think that when I get there I will lock myself in my room as I won’t need to as my flatmates will be lovely and all will be fine! 

Now I just need to get up and get on with the day, and not pull the cover back over my eyes and say half an hour more! 

Onward and upward! 

 

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