What happend to me!?!

I haven't always been an angry person, I always thought I was quite chilled out about life and the little things never really bothered me. But the past 2years, things have changed. I now feel as if I have no control over how I see or view things, and then that sends me into anger over drive. 

What's changed?? I hear you ask. I can think of a few things, diteriation in my health making me disabled at times which is really tough, life getting tougher with having to fight for support for my son (the system where I live sucks big-time!!) And soooooo many negative thoughts have actually changed me, I let people get into my head!! Now I can't see any good. I've gone from being the positive, happy, keep going one, to the miserable, always sleeping, always tired, numb one. I feel numb to absolutely everything, unless it causes me anxiety and I can feel that more than I can feel love.

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