I Sell Smiles

I sell a smile with every drink,

brief interactions

with souls dancing in the night. 

 

 

I fill vials of poison, 

venomous green, handed to strangers who fervently gulp

to forget their troubles. 

 

The music beats through my bones, 

blood coursing like the liquor lined up in fives

before the girl with the glittering eyes. 

 

Money rolling across my palm, 

I smile and thank the giver

from behind my porcelain mask. 

 

As the lights go up 

The air hangs heavy

The lines at my eyes full of sleep. 

 

I sell a smile

to keep my own. 

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