No more!

No more!

The end is getting closer I can smell it

i thought it would smell of rot and decay

but I’m ready for whatever lies beyond.

i have no vision of what that could be,

Noone came back to tell me

noone claimed it no one wanted it 

either way I’m going to a place I’ve never been

A new exciting place of doubt and fear and limited expectations

a place i cant visit, cant see, cant sense

a place only trust and faith can take you

a journey of an undefined length and with undefined horrors or joys.

My own private heaven or hell

ive been before and yet this place is not the same it never is

it morphs and changes with the wind

Sometimes a calm and often a storm

No 2 the same and none enjoyed and yet i travel still.

 

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