Paranoid Ocean

I am a student of my paranoia,

A child of paranoid ways,

Reluctantly, I must acquiesce

To it's behaviour

So eagerly triggered by stress,

 

I follow like a bobbing ship of the sea

I dip up and down to an array,

Of impractical outcomes, manifest

In dilemma, worry and delay,

 

I can only lament this wall of water

At Asylums' pearly gates around me

I am sorry for being so mad

I forever pray my melancholia,

 

My repentance knows no limits

My afflicted spirits resonate,

At follies subtle mechanisms

Which I ask my God to repatriate,

 

And He does!

Saving me form jeopardy

With His miraculous hand,

 

Usually in the form of a person

A friend, a relative, my wife

Or a 'Just Law Of The Land',

 

Or perhaps an experienced manager?

Or an accommodating interviewer?

Any kind person, people or man,

 

Whoever might appreciate this insight

As the sea races and falls

About my mind,

 

I am grateful to be rescued so often by,

Rightly, courageous workmates

From the purple paranoid ocean,

 

In proportion, to the sober reality

I am willing to obey-please help me

At the beat of my mystical emotion

 

Through which the boat of my psyche

Must set sail, to future destinations,

Passing to the safety

Of those blessed common notions,

In the see of Reality.

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