One Thing After Another

So I have done the hard stuff in relation to my child abuse, just waiting for the phone call to say he has been arrested, and I'm not the most patient person so this is torture, but knowing it's coming is putting a positive spin on it all. Although still don't feel real, I still feel that this has all been a dream so kind of need the phone call just to clarify that it is actually happening.

On another positive note, went for a job interview yesterday. I could of done so much better than I actually did, however don't think I fluffed it up completely so still keeping my fingers crossed. Have applied for 2 other jobs so its not the biggest deal in the world if I don't get it.

And to put a real spanner in the works I found out last week that I am pregnant!! A complicated situation however still very excited about it..............and nervous as hell!!! Every lil twinge I get atm I am instantly panicking something is wrong, I have started to just go with it as searching the NHS website had me in a whole new blinding panic!

I am still surviving I am moving forward and making each second count. I can see the road bumpy over the next year but I know I have enough positive stuff going on to make it OK and know that at the end I will still be OK and stronger than ever!

We just have to wait and see which twists, turns and roundabouts this road/journey takes me

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