Artificial Intelligence

BIt by bit, atom by atom, I'm being broken down. Double helix separating, tearing me apart. I don't feel human anymore. Half robot half zombie, I stumble on. I reject human contact, their complexities scare and bemuse me. I'm impervious to their emotional states, or so I think. Wires cross, my artificial intelligence short circuits. Numbness giving way to the grasp of pins and needles. Brain and body overloaded, my faulty wiring can't cope with the rush.

With the rush comes the flood. Tears rust away the metal, revealing skin and bone. I'm jolted back to human from just being. My DNA's reprogramming, my sense of self reshaping. Out with the old, in with the new. New mindset, new focus. New journey to conquer with my all seeing eyes. I was built to be robust enough to withstand the bug, hold it at bay. I'm no longer walking willingly into the virus' snare. 

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Gambler's Anonymous

I spin the wheel, there it goes, my turbulent mood dependant on the speed and force. It lands on the red. I debt again. The anger subsides as the negativity consumes. I gambled my sanity and lost again. Left to chance, I repeat the cycle over a...

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Runaway

RunawayLeave the thread of that thought behind.RunawayRun till you're out of breath, lost peace of mind, all sense of time.RunawayRun until your muscles ache, to a destination barren.RunawayR...

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#avoidance
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Positivity

Positivity is an activitywith limited proclivity. The fragitity of it's anonymityregularly leads to negativity. The insensitivity of my irrationalitycompromises my creativity. read more

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The Way Out

It is only scary when there is no direction. Even times when I've felt lost, deep in virgin forest, it's okay as long as there is a sense of purpose and direction driving me somewhere.The scariest parts of the journey have been t...

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Back In The Room

Ground Yourself. Back in the Room.4-7-8.Breathe and continue.  “What was that like for you?”Time stops.I can no longer disconnectfrom my dif...

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Me

Please note: this story references suicidal thinking

Feeling like i have an alter egoI try to find me and wonder where did me goTrying to decide who is the real meAlter ego or not will i ever see The layers are many and thickI don't know which me...

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