A Realistic Look at How Mental Health Issues Affect Your Life and How to Cope

Insomnia, Depression, Bipolar, Obesity, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Anxiety, Irritable Bowel Syndrome

My name is Janice Marie Alexander. I am the author of two books and a nationally published-award winning artist. I went to graduate school at Regis University. I raised two sons who were both disabled while suffering for over 35 years with ALL of the (above) problems. I was diagnosed by a top psychiatrist in Minneapolis, MN with Bipolar disorder in 2000. Now, without ANY help from their father - I raised these two sons while working full-time and going to college and taking care of an invalid grandmother. One son is 30 and a professional athlete and the other is an entrepreneur. NEVER, not ONCE - until I was 42 years old and a doctor told me that she was AMAZED that I did so much while suffering so profoundly did I EVER think that I had accomplished much at all. I was a Director of Sales and Marketing over resorts and hotels most of my career. I always thought that I was "slacking." Not doing enough. I always felt inadequate. On top of all of these illnesses - I had survived the worst kind of abuse my entire childhood and most of my adolescence. My mother, the abuser sits in jail now for trying to murder her attorney with a shotgun and there is an active investigation going on for her neighbor's murder, in which she is a STRONG person of interest. She told me in 2009 that she had killed three people. I got away - THANK GOD - and reported her to the police. She was my abuser. So, on top of ALL the illnesses - I had this emotional damage to deal with. Why am I sharing this? Because I know that there are people out there suffering and I feel an incredible amount of compassion for all of you. Insomnia alone can be torture! Depression alone can be cripplingly devastating. Bipolar alone can be paralyzing. Do I have any advice? Can I offer any hope? Yes. First, never believe the lie that life is not worth the fight or that YOU are not worth saving. Those are lies straight from hell. Every person on this earth - and I mean EVERY person is valuable and absolutely necessary to mankind. It is only the choices that one makes that can either make that value count or render that value useless. First, make the choice to live. Second, understand that each and every one of us can TRAIN THE MIND to think the things that we want it to that are good for us. By the way - that is backed by scripture (Romans 12:2; Philippians 4:8) and other scriptures. If you are not religious or of another faith training the mind to think the things that we want it to still applies to all of you. Just like you FORCE a jar of peanut-butter to open with your bare hands or by tapping the top of the jar against a hard surface to get what you want - a peanut butter and jelly sandwich or peanut butter on apple slices or whatever - you can FORCE your mind to go in the direction that you want it to. DECIDE that today no matter how incredibly awful that you feel that you will not entertain thoughts of suicide. Instead, you will replace those thoughts with the fact that you will claw your way through the depression that will end at some point, the fact that there are more options for relief that you have not tried yet, the fact that you can be loved and perhaps already are, the fact that you do have talents and abilities that are valuable to society, the fact that you are strong enough to survive and you will figure out a way to improve the quality of your life because you are an intelligent individual that will discover a way, the fact that GOD loves you and does answer prayer and does still perform miracles and DOES approve of and also help us through prescription medicines, doctors, homeopathic remedies, knowledge, people of different cultures and religions, whole and raw foods, meditation, exercise and many other things that empower us. To isolate yourself because you are depressed is one thing that may be a temporary necessary evil (even for an extended period of time) but to isolate yourself emotionally and spiritually from a large portion of humankind because you believe that there is only ONE way and that is YOUR way, YOUR beliefs, can be very unhealthy. Embrace the FACT that GOD loves us ALL with no room for preference because His Word backs that up. See the world as a place that can be dangerous but that also is a necessary gift for us to LIVE an abundant life in: "The enemy comes but for to steal, to kill and to destroy - but I have come to give you life and to give you life more abundantly.: John 10:10. NEVER let yourself believe that you are singled out as unimportant to God or others, a lost cause, a nuisance to society or unlovable. There is SOMEONE for EVERYONE! NO MATTER WHAT YOUR IDIOSYNCRASIES or ILLNESSES YOU ARE OR CAN BE LOVED in a relationship that can LAST the test of time and even eternity. And GOD loves ALL of us! So, you can be sure of His love no matter how grave your sins are. The price was already paid to forgive ANY sin. In ALL of my suffering and there has been a tremendous amount of suffering in my life - I always knew even when I had not met God yet that even if I had given up on myself I could cry out to Him to help me make it through and every time He did. When my mother tried to kill me at 14, I did not know God. She was an atheist and had raised me with that frame of spirit. My mind traveled to "a God" that horrible day and He got me through it. I am 57 now. Yes, some of us do die. I had one son who did - my third son Jacob. Some of us do not make it either because we do give up on ourselves, someone takes our life or an illness or accident kills us. We ALL slumber in death until we rise to eternity or are given another chance to be there. God is a gracious and loving God. He is misunderstood in the Old Testament as cruel. He annihilated people threatening the Jews with spiritual corruption of worshiping their Gods that required their children to be sacrificed on sizzling platters. He only stepped in when the innocent were threatened by the evil and after the New Testament we have eternal hope and forgiveness through Jesus Christ no matter what mankind does. So, did He cure me? Did He relieve my suffering? Did He relieve Paul's suffering who wrote most of the New Testament? NO. I still suffer from MOST all of everything (above). After 15 years of horrible suffering He did instantly heal my oldest son of schizophrenia on March 23, 2001. He did heal my youngest son who could not walk at all after a car accident where his leg was chewed up to pieces and he could no longer walk. He is now a professional skateboarder. Paul and I and many others were not miraculously healed. Has medicine and have doctors helped me? YES. Without Wellbutrin - I cannot function. Without Zyprexa - I never sleep. Without whole and raw foods - I never would have overcome obesity. Without plenty of purified water daily - I would be fatigued no matter what medicines I was on. Without the KNOWLEDGE that the magnetic field of the universe affects my bipolar depression - I would not be ready for it when the seasons change and be prepared to withstand the LONG-TERM immobilization of the depressions at those times. And, without suffering, prayer and faith in God - I would not know how Jesus Christ felt when He suffered for mankind in order to give us eternal life and I would not have empathy for you. Do things get better with time if you hold on? YES. Will there be traumatic setbacks? Possibly, so understand that it may not be a smooth road to recovery or improvement. ALWAYS have an open mind! GOD DID NOT CREATE US TO BE CLOSED MINDED. I have even tried cannabis. It made me sicker than a rabid dog because I smoked too much the first time, but the following three days I had absolutely NO anxiety. And it is legal in California as well as other states. ALWAYS have an open mind! ALWAYS. What you discover tomorrow may change what you dealt with all of your yesterdays. And remember - just because a miracle did not happen in my life does not mean that it will not happen in yours. www.Panny.Me

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