Adventure of a Lifetime

I always said I would like to write a book about my journey - maybe this is the time. I can do it in little bite sized chunks which suit me. And what a journey it has been - and still is. 10 years ago in June I tried to take my own life. It made perfect sense at that time as in my head the world and my family would be better off without me. I was a burden and a waste of space. I had failed at life - simple as that. But the thing is looking back now I can see that in no way had I failed. I was unwell - more unwell than I realised and well lets just say suicide popped up on me - literally. They do say that its a hairs breadth...............but suicide is the most sensible option in your head at that time. But someone decided my time on this earth wasn't up - and by gum I'm glad that they did. To be continued........

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Hell and The Ghost Train

Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide. I think I am in Hell. Coming from a religious upbringing I was told that Hell is your worst ever fears all in one place. So I think that is where I am. The ride has stopped but it's still...

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Suicide
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Helter Skelter to Hell

Regardless of my best efforts I seem to have passed the "stop here" sign and I am hurtling down what I can only describe as the Helter Skelter to Hell. Before I know it I'm plunging deeper and deeper into the darkness with a feeling of sheer ter...

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anti-depressants,
Anxiety

The Day I Fell off The Edge of The Earth

Thursday 3rd December 2016. The day I fell off the edge of the Earth. Really looking back the walk to the edge started many months before, but the fall started in the early hours of Wednesday 2nd December around 1am. I awoke from what had b...

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Anxiety,
Depression

Suspense, Anguish And Fear…..

……….all over what is not real with a paranoid component and feelings of despair. An emotional heart beating out a vibration of error. Not to mention a plague of voices playing with my head.With a mind as sensitive as...

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of,
self
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New Life

It all began at a birth. My first child, eagerly expected and joyously welcomed. Perfect. I used to sit up at night waiting for him to wake up. Then the visions started. Overflowing with happiness my mind created imminent surprise parties. I ha...

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Long note to self

And I know you’re hurting. I know there’s a lot that’s going on your mind. People demand things from you and you try your best to never let them down. I can feel it. Your eyes are tired from crying but you still ask if there&r..;.

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