Rejection !

I don’t meet new people, give people a chance. I was being brave, I agreed to meet someone. Despite my anxiety towards it I was going to meet them, I was going to do it for me. Only for it to be spat back in my face with the same retort that I normally give as an excuse to not meet. This is why I don’t do this!! I am scared of rejection. It’s such a stupid thing to be scared of but I can’t seem to shake it off. I can let myself get my hopes up for them to be ripped away, which I find happens more often than not. So I decided a long time ago, the solution would be not to let yourself care. Of course it doesn’t work out like that but if I started to care I would end or stop it. This has worked out quite well until I decided that I would never get anywhere in life if I did this. So I cared and now I have been rejected once again. How do I move on from this ? Does it get less painful by the more times I am rejected ? Does it stop my anxiety and panic attacks in new situations? Can I be normal ? 

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