Territorial

A force inside my mind,

inside my chest,

a force that feels something like pain,

but not quite,

something like fear,

urges me to go. 

 

How much will I surrender to this feeling,

this foreign part that comes from me,

but is not me.

Is not welcome.

 

This feeling speaks a urgent language,

it speaks to me in ultimatums

about what I can and cannot endure.

 

It says 'enough' several times a day,

but I don't leave when it says leave.

I don't give in when it tells me to.

And I think I can out stare it.

 

I can endure what it says I can't.  

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