Devils On My Shoulder- sounds like a poor excuse

“Its like getting blood out of a stone”, as this illness prevails over me like a heavenly planet pouring scorn on my efforts.

Its all about what moves the economy that is reality it tells me. The constant agony I'm not working well enough in it to produce a big enough gain for myself to please society and employers or friends, family and acquaintances.

It all sounds like a poor attitude and an excuse. And they are all furious and resentful out there in these austere times.

Gnashing their teeth. So how do I improve things? I am exhausted trying to make things better.

I know I try very hard, it is the result that makes people giggle. So I put on a brave face.

 

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