Itch/Scratch

This story references self-harm

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Itch/Scratch

 

When my head goes crazy there is a mental itch

When I hear that voice my fingers start to twitch

 

When there is an itch there is usually a scratch

A temporary relief but there is always a catch

 

When my head goes wavy my arms start to shake

My vision starts to tunnel, my chest begins to ache

 

The more I scratch, the more I feel the need to itch

The more I itch the more my life becomes a bitch

 

When my head feels icky my fingers turn sticky

When the palms go sweaty my crimes turn petty

Thoughts of self harm going off like a car alarm

Thoughts unfinished and compulsions undiminished

I can't keep being so weak, get some air, get some sleep

I can't cope!, I can't breathe!, let me out!, let me leave!

 

The voice tells me to do it, the voice is my own

If I ignore the voice, words make themselves known

 

Now it's out there, no longer a secret burning shame

No more hiding from the ugly truth or denying blame

 

I have done untold damage to others and to myself

These desperate actions were my own and of no one else

 

Kind friends have been lost and all my plans in tatters

Yet at last there is hope, the voice has been shattered 

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