When you see me........

My face:

My face is not pretty, but it's the only one I've got.

Since childhood I have been told to 'cheer up', 'whats up with you', 'get out of bed on the wrong side then', 'oh, you look happy at school/work',  'it might never happen'.

I have what is termed as a hangdog expression, bit like droopy dog (look him up) or Eeyore, so even if I feel ok, fine, good I still get the comments.

Yes it can really upset me because who are you to criticise and judge?  You don't know me, you have no idea what is going on for me.  It can and does perpetuate my feeling inadequate, not good enough, lonely, untrusting and yes, angry. Angry because I would not say such things to you, on occasion something bad HAS happened but you never ask if I'm OK.

I walk with my head down as I don't want anybody to see this face and say 'cheer up, it might never happen'.

So please give me and others like me a break.

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