Is this ok?

You know when there's certain things in your life that happen and you're not sure how you should be feeling??

Take my last post for example, with everything going on (although not alot happening atm as people still need telling before I start the process) I should be feeling scared, nervous, upset..........................well its how I think I should be feeling

HOWEVER this morning I woke up in a fab mood and I'm all smiley and happy............................... I don't know whether this is allowed :/ I feel like I shouldn't be feeling like this at all.

I know there are no rules on feelings however sometimes it does make you stop and think why you are thinking like that. It's conditioned into us that we should be feeling a certain way about different things, with something like this you would be expected to be sat crying in a corner.

Feelings are truly complex and after a talk yesterday I realised that I need to stop worrying what everyone thinks of me and my feelings and just embrace what ever feelings I am feeling at the time. There's no right or wrong way about this, there's no rules.

So yeah today I am happy................................tomorrow well I guess we will wait and see :)

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