I push and rattle the door... but it doesn't budge. I need out of here, just a ten minute walk and to fill my lungs with some air that doesn't smell of NHS lunch . It always smells like mince and my stomach heaves and boaks. It's an fuckin zoo in here. Monkeys and their keepers . Rattle. Bang.
" David get back from the door. You don't have time out. "
" I really need out nurse my head is going to fast . Just five minutes "
" David you are very unwell and you haven't seen doctor yet. You will see her on monday"
" it's SATURDAY "
Her tone changes and face smirks, or at least that's how I see it.
"Why don't you just walk around the ward. You will feel a lot calmer. Just keep yourself busy"
My mind is busy. I notice everything in this world but twist it and reshape it ,connect the dots and fit it into my puzzle. They say I'm unwell but I know I'm not. I'm on a mission from God.
I walk and shuffle like my feet are made out brooms, sweeping the turquoise floor. Calming. Who the fuck has a turquoise floor? And then I notice that I'm noticing the notice board.
RELAXATION GROUP 11AM
COME JOIN US!
And then .....
MOVIE NIGHT 8PM
Enjoy a movie tonight in the
Jesus Christ ! Serendipitous miracles. Ode to joy.
NO NUTS ALLOWED ON THE WARD
NO NUT PRODUCTS SHOULD BE BROUGHT INTO THE WARD AT ANY TIME. THIS IS FOR PATIENT SAFETY .
THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR YOUR COOPERATION.
THE WARD MANAGER.
Inside my head trillions of nuerons connect and electricity pulses. My Dopamine over flows and spills melting my brain like a plastic bottle on a bonfire.
This is a psychiatric hospital and why are they keeping these people in here? We should be allowed to go.... its for our safety . Im going NOW.
I should really go then . Mistakes happen in bureaucratic institutions. After all they say I'm nuts and that's why I'm here. They are fucking me. Keeping me and these poor people against our will when clearly in black and white it says we are not allowed to be here.
Tumbling sanity back to reality..... Yes the notice could mean confectionery Snickers, Starbars and snacks like nuts. Yeah nuts. Topics. ......Back to topic. Connect the dots.
My shuffle changes to walk like a gimp Spacey spaced out usual suspect.
And confidence returns. God is with me.
" Nurse I have noticed that I should not be here. Black and white BOLD print. Let me out of this enclosure NOW! Before I BREAK out!
"Well maybe we could call the duty doctor. See what he says" why don't you go to your room and wait. I'll make the calls"
" Okay but I'm not waiting long. I shouldn't be here."
I'm chuffed, I'll let the keeper know about the notice and I'll give him notice. I'll be home for tea time......
No mince for me tonight.
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