The Affect Of Doing, Getting And Having On My Life

After the intense effort of doing, getting and having while grasping and holding onto my things with a tendency to OCD. Altogether with emotional responses and then tenderness......

Life and its affect on my spirit emerges. A dynamo of emotions has been experienced. The colours and the hues of my deeds and actions are left like footprints, behind me, to remind me where I have been. What a rainbow to celebrate. Clothed in responses adorned like a toga as I navigate life. Protective as a tent in the howling gales and then the sunshine with moody clouds and the changing of seasons.

Dynamic mental health/ mental illness is running like an engine to produce an effort on a load. It can be done like the first flying machine spluttering into life and taking off.

Then calm again when it lands among the grasses of the meadows and hilltops. The valleys and the streams out living this humble, outlandish experience by thousands of years.

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