The Ways Of Others And My Micro Failings


Without sounding pathetic the ways of others tend to have been stronger. Events take over and I am in someone else's hands. Where did my power go?
Then risks are taken on my behalf and their consequences are again held in someone else's hands. I am left with something I do not want to do, silenced and with no voice.
Such are the perplexities that worry and frighten my soul. When I am surrounded by love its OK. When not, I am vulnerable to the elements.
Can society allow and adjust for these micro failings in me which raise their head regularly, with a mechanism of support? In this age of microelectronics?
I need to keep calm when it happens to soothe the angst generated by a temporary loss of power. It is by no means the end of the world I just imagine it is for that moment.

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