The Jitters They Saw

Having recently failed a 3 hour interview by a tiny whisker due to my jitters at the role-play part, I realize that the job is not meant for me.
As the pressure increased so the jitters multiplied under the influence of the interview technique into a rainbow of nerves. This cycle always occurs and repeats itself whenever tested too much.
I reflect that I can see work ever more clearly with time and experience. I recognize that I do have enough qualities and skills. However the schizophrenic jitters arrive with the shock of not knowing something, to add another nail to my coffin for the time being. That's life.
Perhaps it was in the Grand Design of things that this should happen.That the role is too tough. It is not jobs at any cost is it ? But I needed to try because in trying I discern what I can and can not do in this life.

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