Not always "out there"

I had recently filled out a questionnaire by SRN and was wondering why I had stopped writing and using the site since the initial experience had been good for me. The truth is, after having written a positive upbeat piece about my hope of returning to work in an environment and in a role where my experience of mental ill health might prove a benefit or at least be understood. I was to be confronted with the reality that even the supposed well meaning and supportive mental health organisations cant always get it right. You see my past experience of a period of mental ill health meant that relationships with my previous employer had soured (partly I accept due to my antagonism toward them and unfounded suggestion of their persecution of me) However my new employer would not accept (despite being a leading practitioner in Mental health services in Scotland) that I had a long history of very positive not to say glowing references apart from this one period which could and did attest to my suitability experience and skills. I needed a reference from my last employer, which would not be forthcoming. This saddened me since I am sure many many people who have suffered mental distress find themselves in a similar situation every day. You'd think that a mental health charity would understand and seek to find some workaround such as a temporary or trial period of employment but no. Stigma takes many forms, and it seems some are acceptable even for our so-called champions! A long career blighted by one period of poor health. Anyway, I digress, this experience left me feeling that even the best intentioned don't really understand. It's all flowery talk of beautiful horizons and new dawns until ones own back yard is the subject of interest. If I sound disillusioned that because I am. It's maybe time someone put their money where their mouth is, the problem isn't always "out there".

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