My Spiritual Recovery Experience

My spiritual recovery has four aspects:

1. I do not have to be ill to lead an unreal or untrue life.
2. I do not have to be well to lead a real or true life.
3. I can be unreal or untrue due to the complexities of my illness.
4. I can be real and true about the complexities of my illness.

1. It seems to me vast posses of people are able to lead lives which are untrue to themselves. I could be another victim even if I were perfectly well.
2. Despite my illness I strive to be real and true and it is hard work.
3. The illness itself can feed on illusion and unreality and is not the same as being 100% fit and untrue to yourself.
4. I have the power to be real and true about the unreality experienced due to illness.

I am always navigating these murky waters and there is a lot to get lost in and end up beating myself up about. Or getting stuck in a rut leading to depression. Hope is the only sure way back to recovery.
I know it might be boring and frustrating going backwards and forwards with this experience but it is the reality of mental illness that sufferers endure. I can see why people might not understand it at all, both sufferers and non sufferers.
It is a journey anyone can make who find themselves connected with it; individuals, family, society, employers, politicians and law makers. I believe it is relevant to everyone though it appears to be a quite useless thing to happen.

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