A Letter To Encourage Myself

Keeping one step ahead of my mental health. This is what is being asked of me.
How is it done? How will I measure it? How will I know? How will anyone
else know?
The truth is I experience this effort and its pain on a daily basis. Yet any benefit
attained from it might be quite invisible to me and those around me.
I am so sensitive to the world's comments, condemnations and judgements that
I believe I am useless but not altogether worthless. So the task – Keeping one step ahead of my mental health is hard to realise.
There are many personal factors and circumstances which help or hinder this
unseen effort. But with enough hope, it is possible to work on myself in varying
degrees each day. I might do one thing that helps me and that in itself will be
enough.

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