The Stigma of BPD - Seen in Professionals

I was initially diagnosed with depression and after a while borderline personality disorder was diagnosed too. This is how I experienced the change in attitudes when this happened.

I am depressed - we are here at any time
I have BPD - stop wasting our time
I am depressed - we can see you are distressed
I have BPD - you are not distressed at all
I am depressed - we know self harming is how you cope
I have BPD - your self harming is attention seeking
I am depressed - we will try to help you with your suicidal feelings
I have BPD - you are always suicidal, you'll be fine
I am depressed - we can hear your emotional pain
I have BPD - you are badly behaved
I am depressed - we can see things can push you over the edge
I have BPD - you are manipulative
I am depressed - we know you are trying your hardest
I have BPD - you are not trying hard enough
Please don't judge me by my diagnosis
I have not changed
I am still me

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