Let Me Speak

The fear of having no voice. I scream & shout but still there’s no sound. . . I lost my voice well I thought I did. So I stop writing & I stop believing. All my misbeliefs and heartache and overthinking started consuming my mind body & soul. Not good! To put in words how, I wouldn’t even know what to start with. If I start rambling on, just let me ! I seem all over the place well now u understand my mind. Lost after lost , fight after fight, my tears don’t even fall the same the blood on my hands don’t even flow out the same. You would think with all that goes on in my mind it would of killed me already. You wonder how I held on this long. You want to know my secret. . . Well, I don’t even know my secret. I put on this normal face so that everyone can see how normal I am, instead of embracing my difference of every other human I fake being normal. Im rambling on again. . . But just let me speak, I can’t tell how many time these past couple months I told other ppl suicide not the answer and I contemplated on it many times but I’m just a suicidal person telling other suicidal people that suicide not the answer. . . But let me speak, let me 👄

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