Trying to Describe Emptiness

How can I write about and describe feeling empty and emotionless when those words imply that there is nothing there? Blank. I know I am distressed about 'feeling' this way but I can't feel that distress. I am disconnected from experiencing my emotions.

Maybe it's like being surrounded by emotional darkness, in a black sea that has stopped moving and producing sound. My senses are still intact but I can't reach out and experience anything. My emotional senses are still intact but I can't reach out and experience anything. Is the purpose of this to help me to recover from the more intense emotions I have? Sometimes I think it would be better to feel something extreme but when i'm in that place it hurts. There is no in between for me but I can cope better when i'm feeling something although it might not look like it on the outside.

There is no comfort in emptiness but I know the emptiness can and will be filled with something again. I just don't know how, what, or when.

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